Thumbs Again

You hung up the phone
And I asked you what was wrong
Your dad has come to town, he'd like to meet
I said, "You don't have to see him"
But for whatever reason, you can't tell him no

So we meet him at a bar
You were holding my hand hard
He ordered rum and coke
I can't drink either anymore
He hadn't seen you since the 5th grade
Now you're 19 and you're 5'8
He said, "Honey, you sure look great
Do you get the checks I send on your birthday?"

I would kill him if you let me
I would kill him quick and easy
Your nails are digging into my knee
I don't know how you keep smiling

I love your eyes and he has them
Or you have his, 'cause he was first
I imagine my thumbs on the irises
Pressing in until they burst

I clear my throat and say we ought to get home
He offers us a ride, I reply, "No, that's alright"
And when we leave, you feel him watching
So we walk a mile in the wrong direction

I would kill him if you let me
I would kill him quick and easy
Your nails are digging into my knee
I don't know how you keep smiling
I don't know how you keep smiling
I don't know how you keep smiling

I wanna take your face between my hands and say
"You two are connected by a pure coincidence
Bound to him by blood, but baby, it's all relative
You've been in his fist ever since you were a kid
But you don't owe him shit, even if he said you did
You don't owe him shit, even if he said you did"