The Calling

Back then, I was dauntless
And dawn could never know
And my weakness made me weep less
Than I would ever show you
I'd burn so bright it blinded
Now I know that light guided me here

I walked into the river
To wring those embers from my broken heart and broken liver
You'll never get your dinner if you don't learn how to get along
And a fox somewhere is hiding
That light I thought was blinding brought me here

I look into the waters and see a face I don't understand
We're both unwanted daughters
But there's more than water in these autumn hands
I look into the waters and see a face I don't recognize
Who's this? (Who are you?)
"What changed?" I ask
"So strange," she replies

Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
(Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling, calling

Back then, I wasn't hopeful
But now my ink's blood-red, not black
And I'll blink like ripping envelopes
In the hopes that you'll write back
And on the banks of that river
I shiver as a fox stands frozen
And I close them, I close them, I close my eyes

'Cause I'm between that just-one-more
And drank-too-much-again
And I promise you I'll write "I love you"
With my fingers on your sleeping hand
And when that fox howls, I'll howl with it
In its cries I'll find an end
And when I think I'm fine, you'll visit
And then you happen to me, you happen to me all over again

In the waters, I see a face I don't want to look back
Do you like my dress? It's got pockets
The rocks beneath my feet begin to crack
Oh, I look into the waters, long ago that current caught us
And we tried, I tried, I really fucking tried
But the rain kept coming down, I watched that woman drown

Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
(Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling)

Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
(Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling)

Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
(Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling)

Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much)
Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come)
There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling)
(Can't you hear it howling you? It's calling) of calling
Calling in the rainfall