I Hate To Be Alone

Maybe this is more than I bargained for
I might be in over my head
I've tried to loosen up a little more
But all I wanna do is get back in bed

It took so long to get to this point
But what to do or where to go, I don't know
Now I'm just tired of flipping this coin
To determine how my day is gonna go

I guess I hate to be alone
But growing up, that's all I felt I need to be
Didn't realize this would be no fun
But what's to enjoy when this is all so new to me?
What's to enjoy when this is all so new to me?

Loving myself was a losing game
One I never thought I'd try and cheat to win
Doing all I could to hear them call my name
But I'd always end up alone in the end

But that was sixteen, things are different now
I don't need a time machine to see what I've done wrong
Though if I could see into the future somehow
I'd love to see where I'll end up belonging

It's time to build myself a home
I just don't know if I am ready
I need to set out and live life on my own
But what if what I create is not enough for me?
What if what I create is not enough for me?

(Anywhere but here)
Is where I want to be
(Anywhere but here)
I've been wanting to feel free
Hanging pictures from all of my past years
Those times were so good back then
But I won't let this be the end

I guess I hate to be alone
But sometimes I think that's all I'll ever be
Why can't I find someone to fall back on
When I know the ones I push away will need me?
It's time to build myself a home
This won't change, whether or not I think I'm ready
The train is leaving now, I've got to go
And I'm finding out what all is in store for me
And I'm finding out what all is in store for me