November Seventeenth.

I want to set the record straight
It's been you for a while now
Truth is
It was the m-e in team that always felt off key
Because what is life without a story
About the one that got away
To say it was this time a year ago
I turned away from you
Afraid of what happens when patterns are broken
You
You shattered the guise I'd hide behind
In saying that players play for life
That's a sentence with terms and conditions
That included losing you
I told you I refuse to do that twice
Once was a lifetime
An unfulfilling one
The kind that plants you in a rush hour
Staring out the window thinking
Damn, I kinda hate this job
I did that everyday for months
And wondered if your life was in some way the same
But our time apart isn't the point
Instead, our pastimes
QuikTrips and Taco Bell lines
Even though I don't know how you even eat that shit
Late night mixing sessions
Wing hunts
Double headers and daytime sports TV
I know you'll sit through anything if it means
You get to see me happy
Because you've seen me sad
You've seen me cry
Although you were so in shock that all you could do was stand beside me
And I love you because you haven't moved
You saw the sleeping bag and desk lamp
That I called a bedroom
The dates I planned that I damn sure couldn't afford
The '98 that became the RAV
The both have engine problems now
What I'm saying is
It took helping you find a sugar daddy in order for me to have you
And I love you because you probably can imagine
The smirk on my face while writing this
Just as I can see the eye roll you do
When I'm laughing after not reading the room
The disappointment in your face
When I ruin sentimental moments with a poorly timed joke
Because my vulnerability for you used to scare me
Wanting to keep the world from hurting you again
I'd watch you while you'd rest
In amazement that you trust me to protect you
You used to shiver in your sleep
Until I'd put my arm around you
You used to hide some of yourself
Because you'd think that we couldn't be lovers and friends
Until you realized that we don't have either
So we have to be both for each other
And I love you and your wild humor
I love you and your fears
Of not being good enough
Of knowing where life will lead you
Of not having the slightest clue what to wear to a party
And we agree on jeans and some bricks
Because you don't have any other kind of shoe
The only thing I don't love
Is watching you run late
Because I know you'll take forever even if it's me on the way
But I love you so I tolerate it
And complain until we reach our destination
I bet you nodded your head at that part
See
I love you because I know you
And I want to set the record straight
After all this time of hoping you could see it all in my eyes
I love you
And there isn't a thing you can do about it
Make no mistake
It's been you for a while now
Truth is
I learn something new about loving you everyday
And it wasn't until now that I realized that
That's how it should be
So here's to what I'll discover about it today
November seventeenth