Pledge

To be honest im just disappointed in myself
That when we met the first time
I would never hit your cell
Well, we work well, but we wouldnt work so well together
So. im glad that I was never meant to try
Cause you became my beacon when I really needed light
Why, was I so close to deep end
You'd be the only reason that my mind started ceasing
With honesty, I think we fell apart
You started making some decisions that were messing with my heart
You are, one in a million it seems
Started to tear at the seams
You act like you are okay
I know youre just pretending

I have known you longer than anyone else
Youre the quiet type, with keeping to yourself
Though we aint the same from when we were kids
You and I we go together out just adventurin
But sometimes I really think you are too blunt
Not for better, not for worse, but sometimes its too much
You are talented, amazing, You are smart, and always caring
Im thankful for the frienship and I hope its never ending

Oh man, you and I go way back
But I wonder if were honest
Is it all just an act
Sometimes you really scare me
Somestimes its too far
Youre just a hypocrite
Saying I dont try hard enough
Blaming issues on the people who are there
Flip the script on everything to make somebody else care
I know life is kinda sucky, I know it aint fair
But your my brother and I love you
Imma be right here

Man youre so hard to work around
Correcting all my friends
Makes me not want to have you around
Incapable of letting anyone be right
Then question all the rage like why we gotta fight
Its hard, I know
Im trapped, you dont
Realize im stuck
But I love you though
Me you, were close
Know more, than most
You wink at me
With both eyes closed
Its a joke bitch

Invite to me your bed, it was over 'fore it starts
Never bout sex, not intentions from my heart
Confusing person, sending signals that are mixed
Are we stopping, are we going
Girl it really makes me pissed
You cant make up your mind
Yet with mine youre playing tricks
Spending lots of time talking bout relationships
I dont wanna hear the guys that are treating you like shit
Cause if you were with me I wouldnt treat you like it

I think youre a great guy but sometimes I feel like your
Jokes are too much, I can tell you know but im not sure
Feel like with me you act so differently than anybody else
But no matter what im thankful for your help
A dick of a person, youre nice with no curtain
But that is not changing the love that is burning
Between me and you, when I feel like im hurting
I know that youre gonna be there
From the moment I met you we clicked to forever
Enjoying the moments were hanging together
Creating an album uuhmumina FUCK
Memories were gonna share

Having faults just like everyone else
My lucky sevens, no comparing what you mean to myself
Sometimes you fight each other and it doesnt help
But I had all of you when I had nobody else
Crazy summers, school adventures
Three of you, under my belt
It was, you and I, then you and I, then you and myself
And now that, we are older, kinda dumber were feeling ourselves
Starting smoking, started drinking til we laugh at ourselves

You and I were truly closer than could be
Feel like I had lost you after elementary
Felt like a second choice way back in september
Everyone in black and white but I was a pretender
Prentending to be in a moment im not
The line between us silent, is all that we got
Youre a good guy but I wish we did not
Fall apart so steadily after tying the knot
Im grateful that were still friends
A grudge im not holding
I love your devotion
To things in the world its
Great
I know sometimes we have our
Days
And thats okay
Cause were okay

I never thought that we would last this long
Friendships always either lean right or wrong
And in our situation I expected you to go
Thought I was losing everybody, left on my own
Im just glad that we had stayed so close
Everybody fighting battles and you had your own
And Im sorry that life has hit you most
But Im really rooting for you to keep the growth

What you did was really fucked from the start
It really tore me apart, a deeper hole in my heart
I hated you, dont wanna see you again
But I forgive and forget, im glad that we hit reset
Im also glad that I had gave you the ticket
Hanging out, and I missed it
Took a moment to listen
I dont often to like to go and revisit
The memories with it
I swear its done and forgiven

When it comes to you and I
I really question it
Are we good, do you still care
Im not the best at this
Chilling out and on the field
Just where the moonlight hits
Then I tried to grab your hand
Just by flicking it
Now we laugh and its joke
But im still dreading it
Its like im happy that were friends
But I do admit
Im thinking that you still do care
And thats enough, commit
To a friendship that im hoping never splits

Damn, Here we are again
I thought about not writing about you
But I guess it was a sin
It mainly was a joke
But I still said what I meant
I missed a couple things
So here we are again
Okay okay
Heres what I want to say
I wish that we could talk it out
Even to this day
Dont want to be your man
Just want to be supporting
The world it kinda sucks
Im just praying youre not hurting

God damn, wait sorry that not what I meant
But does it really matter if I havent dealt with you yet
Or maybe you have dealt with me but im not noticing it
So if youre giving me a sign then maybe ill start believing it
Hard one to write about, making me scared
Not thinking that im gonna make it to heaven
Is making me unprepared
If you open my eyes it will make me aware
I love you, I hate you, I miss you
Im wishing that I could just have you right here
I feel that you blessed me, I know that you love me
Sometimes I still question belief, aint it funny
I know it defines almost all of things
Believing in you while youre living in me
Im getting to know someone that I dont see
Im hearing somebody that dont even speak
Hope im approved by king of the kings
My Lord and the savior of everything
I swear that I love you, I know you love me
Thank you for blessing my life and my families

Its funny how much that I hate you
Cause this life shouldnt be so fucking hard
I kinda wish you were gone but I need you
I just wish that we learned how to get along
Beat yourself down, you dont give yourself credit
Making all your videos, get lost inside the edit
Drowning all your sorrows, think you need a paramedic
We got a lot of problems, but one day were gonna get it
I think we can, find a way
To be better, for our sake
I think we can, find a way
To be better, for our sake