I TOLD MY BROTHER (that I loved you)

And I told my brother that I loved you
Just last friday night
But I can see that you feel different
By the look in your eyes
And I still try to force myself to see you as some wasted time
But I can't help to realize
That you were the best of my life

And why do I keep holding on
To something that I can never have
And you were once in a lifetime
And I just let you slip my grasp

And the deepest feelings are the ones that are hardest to say
I wish I had the strength to say these words right to your face

But I told my sister that I missed you
As the autumn leaves turn ripe
And as fall fades into winter
The little things still haunt my mind
And their still playing Sweater Weather
On that old station that you liked
And I can't help to realize
That you were the best of my life

And I could never hate you
Just because you don't love me anymore
Yeah I just hate the fact that it makes me want you more

And the deepest feelings are the ones that are hardest to say
But I wonder if you'd cared what I have to say

Cause if this whole song was about you
Would you even care to know
That you inspire all my melodies
That I write when I'm alone
But I am holding on to a love that never was my own
Cause I can't help to realize
That you were the best of my life