I Haven't Seen the Sun In Days

I honestly can't find a reason to get out of bed
Every fucking day's the same
This shit's sending me insane
Never was too good at reaching out, asking for help
Emotions undefined
I think I'm losing my mind
Self destructive cycles that I'm unwilling to change
Antidote to the monotony
Kill the animosity
I looked up at the sky today and felt a brief ignition
I can't hold onto this feeing
Watch it slip, my head is reeling

Is this lack of contrast necessary for a change
A lesson in discovery
Emotional recovery
Never thought I'd say this but I hate being alone
Tiny hits of dopamine
Forget what comes in between

I haven't seen the sun in days
Foggy absent minded haze
Been inside my head so long I don't know my way out
Mental introspection, and I'm drowning in self doubt
But I can't fucking move
Has it been a year already?
Said I'd stop this when I'm ready
There's no way that this is healthy
I need somebody to help me