Destiny (feat. Beti & Brandon Woody)

I'm so far from perfect
Guess they'd never know it 'cause I never really show it
Yeah, I'm calm on the surface
Zoom into my being, there's alarms and alerts
And a battle going between reality and purpose
There's balance or divergence
The door to our destiny is defended by deterrents
Yeah, we slip and fall, and for the moment it might hurt us
Can't let it disconcert us
Late nights, mornings overslept
Stress all on my face, I'm poppin pimples like they Percocet
Youngins gettin at me, they ain't even put the work in yet
Rappin 'bout a fantasy and I can't really work with that
Homie heard some new shit, he said Boozle yo you murkin that
Heard he sent a message to my ex and now he workin that
Life will keep you humble when your head as big as circus tents
Circle gettin smaller by the day is the adverse effect
I go harder each and every day, is it worth it?
My folks feel like I'm missin, I be in and out of circuit
I let my brother down, I barely heard a single word since
That's the shit that break me down and got me feelin worthless
Reminders written in cursive
I cannot forget that which is etched on epidermis
Bam is a wizard, but there's a man behind the curtain
Alexan the wordsmith, gifts that you couldn't purchase
What's it for if the fam ain't fed off that?
Why do artists struggle while the dummies dead off rap?
Ain't nothing special 'bout them kids, they just Kellogg's snacks
All them lies on the track, don't let 'em sell y'all that
I smoked the work with dawg and it went too fast
I hit the plug, he like damn how'd you sell all that?
And I ain't sell it, I'm surprised I got to tell y'all that
Life's stress and I just got to take the edge off that
Wish I could hit the stage, I ain't been up in like a year
Coronavirus closures put a hold on my career
I'm searchin for an opening, I know the door is near
I'm holdin on to hope, but I done let go of some tears
And what I'm kickin different, this that flavor in your ear
I do it for my fam and the ones I hold dear
I'm workin for my peoples, yeah, I'm sure I made it clear
I need for them to know how much they matter while they're here
Things ain't always what they appear
I know I'm sharper than shears, a hell of a way from Sears
I'm headed for big lights, I swear I can hear the cheers
But falling off course is my biggest fear

Wait on me, weights on me
Need the music to be my one and only
Searchin for a door that's lookin kind of blurry
But I'm tryin to reach my destiny
Wait on me, weights on me
Need the music to be my one and only
Searchin for a door that's lookin kind of blurry
But I'm tryin to reach my destiny

Testin under David Bowie pressure
Sway with the answers, got me askin Alexa
Cash stashed in the dresser for the bad weather
But that rain comes often and them storms won't let up
Eric Draven said that it can't rain all the time
I watch The Crow when I'm low and I got pain on my mind
A solid family and some bros, and I know they're by my side
But I get feelings of solitude that won't seem to subside
I had plans as a youngin, a lot of 'em didn't turn out
To be what was in store for me, I pray this time it work out
Heel-flipping for a workout, skate until I'm burned out
Mugzy pull up and you know them hits is gettin churned out
A rack of 'em
Trust me, y'all don't even know the half of it
The way that I'm not smackin y'all, you'd think I was a pacifist
I ain't tryna flood the streets, in this game I'm a strategist
Them other niggas draggin it
Boeing got me higher than where Jasmine and Aladdin is
Stones on my neck, I mix aquamarine and amethyst
County Kids pull up to the disco, they get to panickin
Dynamic and damaging
Going dark like I'm Anakin
Leave 'em stuck like a mannequin
I get on the stage and I start feelin like the man again
Inbox full of messages, more spam is in from the Stans again
Stuck inside the crib, started forgettin who I am again
But all I need's a microphone to handle it
Sheesh