Twisted

I'm getting tired of feeling the way that I have been
Always hear the same voice
Inside my head calling me a "Has been"
Wish I had a stronger choice
But I know a vice will only ever stick to sin
Typical shit and I'm tryna vent
But it never works unless I grip the pen

Now I see that I'm right here
Unaware of where my life tear
Say you love me but I don't care
'Cause that feeling something that we don't share
Twisted view when I see a mirror
Fluctuating every day I veer
Advocating that I fall to fear
But that's shit advice that I'll stall to hear

Sick and tired of the rollercoaster
Struggle by until the day is over
Witness pain until I meet Jehova
This a different league and I ain't talkin' MOBA
Depression make me idolize a holsta
Push it down but it'll take me over
Hard for anyone to know me closer
And the solitude has never won me closure, shit

Maybe it's me who's inflicting the wound
Impatient need a cure soon
Fantasies of a pure tomb
But this jealousy got a bad fume
One face, I learn from the moon
Mental season, pushin' monsoon
But it's needed now if I wanna bloom

Ay, please, get me outta this
Motherfucker, I'm just tryna switch
Bring me down to a place of bliss
With a loving touch and a healing stitch
Never much when I was a kid
That's the root now for all the hunger shift
Struggle more to embrace the mist
And the more I fight, then the more I drift

Got a phone call from my brudda told me
Miss you man' now hit me back homie
Just us needa bag homie
Money itching tryna get it on me
If I trip then I know you got me
Drowning slow in this life tsunami
And the reason why I'm still here beyond me

Bitch, I'm staying distant even with those in my vicinity
Don't speak with that affinity
Won't break and I ain't finicky
It's been up and down with futility
Catch myself in duplicity
And this feeling really ain't new to me
Frequent cycle with efficiency
Why the fuck can't I just break free

I'm getting tired of feeling the way that I have been
Always hear the same voice
Inside my head calling me a has been
Wish I had a stronger choice
But I know a vice will only ever stick to sin
Typical shit and I'm tryna vent
But it never works unless I grip the pen

Now I see that I'm right here
Unaware of where my life tear
Say you love me but I don't care
'Cause that feeling something that we don't share
Twisted view when I see a mirror
Fluctuating every day I veer
Advocating that I fall to fear
But that's shit advice that I'll stall to hear

Twisted, twisted, twisted, I get
Lifted, lifted, lifted, so I'm
Twisted, twisted, twisted, I get
Lifted, lifted, lifted, so I'm
Twisted

Yo, bitch!
Watchu doin'?
Not answering my phone calls, shit
But call me back, motherfucker
Later