Gift And Curse

Its unparalleled even though I said it
It's the gift and the curse It's two opposite sides
Its unparalleled even though I said it
It's so conflicting It's so afflicting

It's unparalleled even though I said it
It still hurts when it melts and I'm
covered in the blessings
I've always seen them clearly but
I couldn't stomach the fact that i was
so different from all of the others
I was cast aside

But not anymore
I'm barely alive
Duality scorned
Is the prize worth the fight?
How do i know?
How does it feel?
To know you're far from home
Without a prayer to call your own

Its unparalleled even though i said it
Its unparalleled even though i said it

It's the gift and the curse to feel so
alive when I'm dead inside
It's the best and the worst
life I've ever lived before
I've died inside your eyes before
It's the gift and the curse to need so
much time when I run away
It's the best and the worst
pride is slipping off this table
and I'm sitting here all alone
and it's the gift the curse to be me

I saw things a little abstract
I felt everything around me pulling like a magnet I remember
everything like I was meant to walk with it ive
I've taken coffin precautions but I'm just too cautious
A little spit to the flowers
when unwritten scriptures were the problem solvers
and not the answers but the questions
and the truth hurts
It's not a non lethal injection
just a Past with a future yeah

So loosen up the sutures
It's time for these wounds to
truly see the world truly feel the hurt
If you're hearing this
you're one of the lucky ones
And if you're hearing this
we're one in the same because
Its all love

But all this hate it got me in a
game of stick and pull of stick and pull
I knew I'd never see your face
and all this playing with my brain
It got me in a place where i can barely see
what's in front of me
I'll lose it with the light in the dark and it's hard
I'm fumbling for a spark
I'm coming up from the catacombs
a maniacal vagabond and it's time for the
night to fall into another unknown It's better if known

Oh no
It's better if known
The gift the curse
I'm all alone in the

It's the gift and the curse to feel so
Alive when I'm dead inside
Its the best and the worst
Life I've ever lived before
I've died inside your eyes before
It's the gift and the curse
To need so much time when I run away
It's the best and the worst
Pride is slipping off this table
And Im sitting here all alone
and its the git and the curse to be me

(Hypothetically speaking I'm levitating over adversity
If you don't kill me you wont kill me)