New Friends

everybody's been moving on
got all new friends to bring along
but I still miss you
take the red train to a brand new city
I like your new hair, I think it looks pretty
and I still miss you

you forgot to call for my eighteenth birthday
and I forgot to call when you had your worst day
but we still said it was fine
and I'm looking at my phone every moment
but you don't even call when you're home
and I'm so tired of it
I feel like I'm losing it

so when you finally find
what you've been looking for
well I hope to god that it was worth it
to leave me waiting at the station
at a quarter to three
I'd still wait there for you
if you needed me
but you don't need me like you used to

you used to take, like, five medications
and still get high just for the sensation
of being someone
I watched you grow, and I watched you cry
I watched you lift your wings
to fly too close to the sun
just to feel like someone

When you finally find
what you've been looking for
well I hope to god that it was worth it
to leave me waiting at the station
at a quarter to three
I'd still wait there for you
if you needed me
but you don't need me like you used to
like you used to

so I'll stop calling
I'll stop writing
I'm so sick of all this fighting
and all the shit that you pull on me
I'll stop calling
I'll stop writing
cause I'm finally realizing
that I, should let, you be
til you miss me