Devil On My Shoulder

I've been trying so long
Not even sure what I'm doing anymore
Searching for the way why do you make it so hard
Always in my head no I don't make it too far
I've been fighting to push on
Too tired keep snoozing the alarm
Rather be asleep it's the only time you're gone
Can't shut you off when I'm awake you're stuck on

Surviving through the week
While you're counting down the days
Trying to catch a break but you keep on making plays
Ain't no rest for the wicked
Now I know that much is true
But the wicked in my head is all the poison that you spew

My thoughts are overflowing
Sprouting up these little doubts
Watch them growing into problems
Blocking every way out
Stuck in this vicious cycle
Wasting gas on dead end streets
I can't see but I can hear you
Every night we share the sheets

Constantly exhausted try to sleep
That's not an option
Always running never stopping
Hard to get a honest thought in
Take my shot you always block it
Tried distractions they can't stop you no
What I really need is a sign
That someday this fight will end
All of me wants to give up
But I just can't seem to give in
I've got a great girl great friends a loving family
So much pressure to get better
Just want them to be proud of me

So much pressure weighing down
Feel like my backs about to break
Got millions on my mind
I'm talking thoughts I don't get paid
For this stressing and obsessing
Questioning my every move
Can't seem to make you happy no matter what I do

Can't keep up with this persona that I'm doing great
Keep on lying with my smile say I'm doing okay
Mentally stuck frozen watch the days melt away
You're like the devil on my shoulder
Settled in you're here to stay

Like the devil on my shoulder
Like the devil on my shoulder
Like the devil on my shoulder yeah yeah
Like the devil on my shoulder
Like the devil on my shoulder
Like the devil on my shoulder yeah
Like the devil on my shoulder yeah

You got me falling down
But I keep getting back up
Resilient in this battle mentally I'm fucked
Physically I'm tired of fighting fights that I can't win
Every time I think you're gone
I catch you creeping back in

They say to open up
Be brave just be yourself
But they hardly pay attention when the words come out
There's people all around
But I still feel alone
They'll invite you in
Feels like nobodies home



Credits
Writer(s): Nikki Mackay
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