17

I mistakenly thought that
I'm done with this world
But there are many things
For me to learn
I wanna know what is under the sea
What is up on the sky
And I want my life back
I still want to live
I have to proof myself
That I ain't a piece of shit

I am 17 years old now
Music isn't the only thing
I'm going to do anymore
Maybe someday I have
To change my career
So I have to learn many things
Self -learning, Self -learning
I don't need teachers
To tell me the things

Actually I wanted to study
But I already left school
So i have to go and
Never look back
That damn place
Never treated me well anyway
If you find a new place
It will be the same
Cause it's a rule of this world
But I've broken this rule
Dropped school to do music
I never mentioned about it
Until today, Because
I don't think
It's a cool thing to say
Hey I dropped out of school
I'm uneducated,I don't graduate
I don't have a degree
But now I'm shameless enough
To talk about it
And hey kids
Don't take me as an example
It's very difficult
If you don't have a degree
You may not be in an air-conditioned room

I won't work for anyone
I will be my own boss
I will do what I want
I'm not a good
Example for anyone
So don't follow my way

Me at seventeen tried to do everything for me at 18
And at seventeen years old
I want to apologize to my stomach that I didn't take good care of it

I want to apologize to my hands that I used to pick up other people's things

I want to apologize to my mouth and my brain
I say contradicting what my brain thinks
But all that I did is just to protect my heart

I'm telling myself
Just wait..., when you turn 18
You will can do want you want
You will eat what you need
You will can leave this house
You will have your life
Your own life, just wait
Don't leave me yet
Stay with me
I still need you 32

I want to apologize to my ears for having to hear these shit
I don't wanna hear bullshit, no more
I turn on some metal music to drown out
The annoying loudest noises of my family

I want to apologize to myself for being in this kind of environment

It's not my home, it's no family
I have to leave
I have to go to find a piece of my broken heart on the island
And I will keep them

But I'm only 17
I think a lot about money

You will can eat what you want
But not a lot
You can do what you want
But not everything you wanna do
Because don't have enough of money

My family
When they will go out
They always ask me what I want
What I want to eat
But it's just a question
I never see them bring what I want gone home
It was quite disappointing that
I have endured not to buy food
Just to wait for nothing
So when they ask me questions
I would always say I don't know

Everyone got what they wanted except me

At seventeen
I'm so tired, I'm so confused
I still want to live
But also want to sleep
And never wake up

So I hope my music
Will be trending
Even if in a negative current
Cause I need money

See?, when you don't have any degree
Your life would be like this (Really?)

Seventeen is really tough
I hope I will live
Until I'm 35 years old