Holding On

SSRIs in a bottle might just take em twice
Know these pills kill me if I'm taking more than im prescribed
Holding out for nothing see myself inside your fiery eyes
See you burning from the pain only I provide
I know this shits not pretty but im in it for the ride
Seen a few friends taking risk and losing life
It's a different life It's all a different lie
Been buried in the sand n you don't know what that's like
Memories got me in chokehold gasping for light
Henny slowly lifts it I'll be drinking all night
My family want me better cuz depression isn't nice
They tell me see the doctor but that guy fucked me twice
And I don't know just where to go
Stepping like a baller
But the money doesn't change im broke
And i'm all alone ohh

I been holding on for long
If I didnt love you
You'd have seen my name gone
Rest in peace the soldiers we lost
Rip the soldiers that didn't make it across
I can't schedule when im sad
My bros dont need another loss
So I keep a brave face
And give it what I got
I give it what I got
Can only give it what I got

She told me please don't chat to me
For a while until her boyfriends back overseas
Maybe i should hit him up and tell him man were clapping cheeks
But ion want the beef so ima keep clean

Heavily sedated always need someone to save me
If i learn of independence then im probably going crazy
I dont seek the future cuz the past still haunts me daily
I guess it's kinda scary that my future is a maybe
look into my eyes girl try see what i see
Hell will be frosty the day u try and cross me
You don't want the smoke u can even bring your whole team
I see past the act, a facade could never fool me
I don't wanna lose it now
I can't face the crowd
Pressures getting heavy i might start to break down
Head starts spinning everything gets loud
And I don't know just where to go
Stepping like a baller
But the money doesn't change im broke
And im all alone ohh

I been holding on for long
If I didnt love you
You'd have seen my name gone
Rest in peace the soldiers we lost
Rip the soldiers that didnt make it across
I cant schedule when Im sad
My bros dont need another loss
So I keep a brave face
And give it what I got
I give it what I got
Can only give it what I got

And I dont know just where to go
Stepping like a baller
But the money doesnt change im broke
And im all alone ohh