800 Pictures

I'll miss laughing, being there for you
All the shit we got into, hell it made me new
Yeah you sent me to places I had never been
Aphrodite's purpose, you're my sin
I wanted to spend my whole life with you
Give you the world and be your everything
So I walk in the wake that you left for me
All alone, all alone I'm sinking
I'm always thinkin' bout all the shit that we did
And now I'm stuck, I can't move from this
And I never asked to have this paranoia
This dreadful mind state, or this emptiness
I never thought I would have to see your face
As anything less than a warm embrace
Baby I gave you all of it, and I thought that I could-
But girl now I know that the glass was half full
I don't really wanna live, if not for you
I don't really wanna love, if not with you
At the end of the day, you know how I feel
So what else can I do except take another pill?
My camera roll has one thousand pictures
You take up over 800 pictures
Why do you not wanna help me fix this?
Can't get through, help me fix this
If you only believe one thing that I said
Let it be that your beauty knows no end
Laid out in the parking lot, below the stars
I remember looking over and I thought look at how far I've come
Used to be a shallow husk, and now...
This girl filled me with love
You gave me- you gave me all of your love
I guess I fucked up, I really fucked up...
And maybe one day, we'll be laughing about this
Pour a couple out, end the night with the right kiss
Maybe one day I can call without grief
Light up when I see your name on my screen
If I'm being honest, tried to kill myself
I wrote this down so I don't kill myself
When I write about you, it's never past tense
I blink and see you, it doesn't make sense
I think back to the times that we sat in my room
My heart was happy, and yours was too
I will never know what the fuck happened to me
When you said "Should I wait?"
I didn't say the right thing
From now on, gotta keep my chin up
From now on, gotta find my own love
I miss your head laid across my chest
I failed your test, but I wish you the best
When I look back, I see beautiful completeness
When you look back, I guess you really wanted done quick
I miss sitting with you on that patio in North Carolina
That trip was supposed to reignite us
Can't remember being happier than in that weekend
Sitting next to you we were joking, reminiscing
Maybe I'm naive, hell, I guess I am
I see you moved on, so it really is the end
If God lined 'em up, I would always pick you
I never meant to hurt, but I know I did too
Your eyes, they might as well be a sign
When I laid mine on you for the first time
I knew I loved you... I knew
But after everything that we've been through
After everything...
I don't regret that I knew you