19

My car broke down in the snow again
And I can't find a way home
This oh-so-perfect life I was promised
Isn't looking so bright
I'm coming home smelling like marijuana
Cause I can't seem to think straight
I'm still stuck on this boy
And I'm still stuck in the dark
Even in the light
Right now
I wanna go
Wherever you go
And I wanna do
Everything we're made to do
But I'm just 19
Carrying the weight of what I shouldn't have to see
Until I'm just a little older
I wanna be casual and sweet
I wanna be who I see in a dream

I'm only 19
And I wanna live life the way it's meant to
Before it's too late
Before the lights go out
When it's my time to be

This feeling is sinking in me like the Titanic
And it screams I'm here forever
But I know forever is never forever
So then what really is forever
I wanna see me happier than I can ever think of
Living a life I can only dream
But the spark in me is dying
I'm scared of getting older
I don't wanna live alone
But the voices in my head will never leave me alone
I wanna live while I'm young
And I'm just 19
Carrying the weight of what I shouldn't have to see
Until I'm just a little older

I'm too young to have these thoughts rolling in my head
And I'm too young to wish the worst upon me
I'm only 19
And I wanna live life the way it's meant to
Before it's too late
Before the lights go out
When it's my time to be

I'm only 19
(I'm just 19)
(Carrying the weight of what I shouldn't have to see)
And I wanna live life the way it's meant to
(Until I'm just a little older)
Before it's too late
Before the lights go out
When it's my time to be

I'm almost 20
Life won't slow down
Not for her
Not for him
Not even for me