Last time I right a song about desperation

Heard you lost another one today
Your victory is getting so much further away
It's a selfish, selfish dangerous thing, to hope you get better again
Cuz it's hard just too difficult to say
If I see you another time another time in that state
That I'll manage to stay, look the other way
And not abandon you the way I did that last day

But wait here comes the sun again to shine itself on my best friend
And makes me think about all I lost
And how someway I'll find my way back to that better place
Where I can begin

To heal again rather than wither away
In my very own personalized private prison
How did you know that you'd fine me there not dead
Kinda always known, you'd survive fine stuck within

Yourself, in your past
In your pain
In yourself and spiraling
Towards a breaking point
So just dig in and try find strength
Drowning within
Hope you can tread until you can swim
Tiny comforts like friends are not yours to have
No encouraging words can resolve your dependency, except your own