Bipolar Impulses

I been losing my mind... mhm
Yeah yeah yeah, contemplation
Turn to realization
My heart been racing
So I'm exotic facing... hmm, yeah

Contemplating turn into realization, regarding all minutes wasted
My heart begin racing, causing me to turn to exotic facing
The life that presented itself to me been so amazing
In a sense I never thought by 20 I'd be this persuaded
Life ain't much
Live to die, while you die to live
Dying within
Feel like I'm lying within
Like everything gone be alright, no one denying that sentiment
Feel like depression been lurking to get me since I was 10
Demons been spying on him
Sent by the devil to corrupt
As a result, I almost ended up residing with him
Wanted to go ghost, not thinking I'd be lying in sin
I had a reawakening, rather be riding in Benz
With you
My wild flower, nothing else could fill the vacant space
Where my heart last resided
Too prideful and could hardly hide it
That was you, while I put mines to the side quick
Then it died shit, but let you tell it that's my side chick
It hurt to let you go, started yearning for that vibe again
Not even realizing that yo' presence had my mind sick
Knee deep in depression, roaming trying to find my niche
As the time tick
Thoughts recur of ending mind with blick
Mind you now, my mind been rich with knowledge for a minute
Maybe I'm just in my feelings
Maybe all this shit ain't real and I should really end it
Nah, I ain't finished
Pardon my bipolar impulses
My mind go like a mile a minute
It wasn't too much of a better feeling than when I was in it
Not just the sex, yo' presence used to get me high as ever
I look outside and see my eyes similar to the weather
Trapped in my mental, most of the day it's just like I'm on tether
So many storms that I weathered
Most of my brain should be severed
Did wrong by a few but throwing dirt on my name ain't no better
Like I'm a bad dude
I just reciprocated energy I felt first
But I put nothing past you
To tell the truth, this song past due
It's just some demons re emerged, I'm trying to turn them into past news
Bad news, lil Roy elevated from a damn fool
Now showing love is something that I too much can't do
Kept that out my head, like it was Cantu
Villain tendencies, no one as real as he
Could never take my mantle
Was really in a sad mood
Life been moving fast dude
It'll fuck yo' head up when everybody steady moving past you
They heads gone be fucked up when I show up to the function in that fast dude
In all purple, bitch who asked you
That flexing and that stunting first thing ah have them mad at you
That's why I'm on my shit, can't slip
'Cause they'll laugh at you
Soon as you lose it all, something I can't do at all
Only critique I'ma accept is when they say move the ball
But who else gone up the score, after them D.O.N boys
It was obvious no one else can, just look at the board
And to my baby, I swore that we gone see Bora Bora
So I can ease all the pain, know she can't take it no more
My mind and heart was at war, that shit turned me into a whore
I probably hurt her worse with words, for my tongue is a sword
I made it out that war scarred, feel I need an award
Needed a few and it was hard, but I ain't needy no more
Said they love me with all they heart, don't know the meaning no more
Was drowning in that fake affection, now I'm reaching the shore

Mhm
Uh huh
Was drowning in that fake affection, now I'm reaching the shore
You said you love me with yo heart, don't know the meaning no more
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah, yeah
Got out here on my own and saw I never needed a whore
Just washed my hands and now I'm focused in on cleaning my pores
Yeah
Came up in hell's kitchen, nigga I just finished the chores
I just, yeah
Out my mind