Gone

Without purpose
It's nothing fulfilled
So that mean you just out here living
And living and being alive
Are two different things
Living, is playing it safe
Working for Mr. Charlie
Praying you get the weekend off
In hope that you might be able to
Retire at sixty-seven
But to be alive, is fulfilling your purpose
And manifesting destiny
Go look at that square you standing on
Right now, listen

Manic bipolar depression
That run through my family line
But enough of just picking this question
I'll get to the point in this line
See I be thinking it's a long time
But not enough time to follow through
And go and ask God
Yet I think it's just a rough time
For an alumni who went and graduated
On top
And made him a scholar
Who was scraping for pennies and nickels
But never did make him a dollar
I don't wanna go touch on these issues
On top of the fights with my father
When all you hear is fuck you
Until the rent due
And everybody seem to be against you
Straight up to heaven's gates
Is where they sent you, look
I put it in motion
When everybody trippin
Cause you never show emotion
It's your life, it's your moment
Man I was running out of strikes
Till that night I made Chosen
I wanna be the one sitting there first
When they open up the gates to the heaven's
Said I wanna be the one sitting there first
When they gotta speak my name to the reverend
Grinding all the time
Had me lost in different days
But I was trapped inside my mind
Get inside in an unlimited different phase
Was either giving a tithe
Or either living a lie
Thank God for the times I was living alive
I been sipping all this liquor hope my liver alive
Thank God for the times (Thank you God)

See I don't want the same shit
I'm just tryna win
Life is but a slave ship
Sailing in the wind
Till we're all gone
Till we're all gone
I'm gone, gone
I'm gone
I don't wanna know
So don't you ask me what's next
Would you give it a rest

Lord are you guiding my thoughts
Cuz I think I'm losing my mind
Our Graceful obedient death
I'm indebted myself and I see that in time
I'm failing in ways unimaginable
Reaching new heights just to fall to the ground
I get on my knees and I pray
And I look to the sky think I'm letting you down
This my confession
Ain't no repentance
Ain't bound for heaven
I'm ducking the reverend
I'm losing my light
Man my life was a blessing
My Pops gave him lead
So they gave him a sentence
They gave us no hope
We turned it to chance
The devil been plotting
I fucked up his plans
I made my mistakes
Which through I advanced
They ask if I'd change
I'd do it again
The kid from the gutter that rose
When others opposed
I knew I would prosper
(I knew I would)
They flooded my soul
With bundles of gold
I refuted their offer
(You know I did)
The lord will show up in the weirdest of times
Despite all the times I was living a lie
He lifted my head and stood by my side
While fighting with angels that fell from the sky

Sanctified
Unified
Crucified
You running a lie
A lie
Sanctified
Unified
Crucified
You running a lie
A lie
Run to God
You better run to God
To God
To God
Run to God
You better run to God
To God
To God
Know your worth now