I'm Not

I wasn't holdin' on to words that you never meant
Problems with myself 'cause of the things that I never said
Brea-, brea-, breaking down the walls between us
Only to find that the open door was straight ahead
So tell me, what am I breaking my back for?

I should've asked more, probably could've relaxed more
When I was tripping, could've filled the red stamp on the passport
Now I'm just guessing that I'm gettin' the pain that I asked for
This is exactly what I never came back for

Bеcause I'm, not, searching for forgivenеss
Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done
And I'm, not, making your decisions
Because you're everything I'm not

Can never live in the background
It's getting harder to stop this bleeding back
Never needed to back down
Been underwater and I'm still breathin' in
Next up, my God, I've got, one thing and I want more reasons
And I've got, my heart, turned up
Sick of trying to fight this feeling

Because I'm, not, searching for forgiveness
Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done
And I'm, not, making your decisions
Because you're everything I'm not
(Because you're everything I'm not)

As I take in my last breath
And this weight is on my shoulders
I don't need to second-guess
Won't let you in
Feel this pain inside my chest
And we're only growing colder
I don't need to second-guess
I let you in

I'm, not, searching for forgiveness
Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done
And I'm, not, making your decisions
Because you're everything I'm not

I'm, not, searching for forgivenеss
Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done
And I'm, not, making your decisions
Because you're everything I'm not