Casualty

I know you're scared
You think that it's something you'll regret
That we're just a casualty of the war inside my head
And I know it's hard
To look at the things inside ourselves
When we take the covers off and go outside our beds
And now the summer begins
And we start to connect
With your hand on my chest
And your heart on my lips
Fuck

I fall apart, I think I'm finding it hard
Inside your arms the light just turns into dark
I'm nervous, I tremble, I'm jealous, I struggle
I become everything I hate
Another summer begins
You put your head on my chest
On the top of the world
There's nothing better than this
Fuck

I'm sorry when all your flowers suffocate in my mind
I'm sorry but even sorry doesn't cover this time
I'm growing, but in the fall my leaves will change and decay away
And I'll lose everything
Another cycle begins
I'll blame my trauma again
Cause I don't know how to fix
What's fucking wrong in my head
Come on

Baby, I'm scared
I think that I'm stuck in the deep end
It's happened again
You know I can't swim
And I need a hand