Eulogy (John Doe The First)

Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what

Thank you all for coming won't make this all for nothing
I witnessed John Doe my whole life now Mayhem's all that's coming
The anger, calm, the fucking
Pain the love the buttons
Pressed and played on repeat it made John Doe a puppet
Master yanking on those fucking
Strings and changing moods like clothing
I ain't never wanted that damn raging contradiction
So I killed him off this album this mixtape is all or nothing
Hated by who loved him to some graves are just redundant
Cause He's been dead for years depending on who plays your honor
Fake like you control my life insane if you think imma
Fold aces when I got em nah bitch raise it till I'm all in
Cyclothymia toxic but I'm radioactive on this
His mind state's made of double crosses it raises some more problems
They say that it's a process today I save my progress
He ain't the man you thought bitch they think that they knew John yet yuh
Everybody speaking states a different tale honest

Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what

Some claim he was a God but the Atheists are bothered
Maybe he's just honest
Yuh Maybe he's a hot head
Meditation helped him but the snakes are in the garden
You portrayed the kind of self esteem that scared sheep back in corrals
You payed the price they hate to see you make yourself some dollars
You made me me I'm grateful but the pain you bring is stronger
I know you'll never quite leave me but maybe things ain't harder
How do you mourne someone born for their legacy
The metaphorical morgue ain't the enemy
'Cross the headstone reads the death to toxicity
The contradicting conflicts are gone e- eventually
Never understood it till I was was 17
Nice jab mean hook mood swings keep hitting me
Harm you hoes a heart of gold articles was sent to me

Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what

Bi polar I won't give an Iota eye rolling
Till I look at my motives King shit or am I no one
I'm full of myself till my mind's slower lines doubled
You don't want my nine loaded talk about a mind blower
Never been one to sugarcoat all my feelings
Just one crumby month old bullet hole in my ceiling
That's that John Doe talking and you wonder why he's t- too deceased
That toxic double crosses conflicts inside some of you and me

Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn eulogy
Rest In Peace to John Doe I won't cry at your damn what