Entropy Machine

As it all kicks in I see your face
And I don't know if I should laugh or cry
And as I walk around our neighborhood
I look at Earth and wave goodbye

It's not enough to be with you
You gotta wreck my self-esteem
And looking down upon your lands
I think that living's a bad dream

My friends all said I'm looking kinda thin
Man, can't you see I'm not okay
I can't use anymore of my money
And I know you just want to stay away

But it's not enough to stay away
And rid yourself of guilt
It's not enough to get through your day
And bury feelings that you've killed

I think of moving out but I'm sleeping in
How'd this bed get so comfy
I don't want to be the prince of retail stores
Let me out of this supermarket, please

And now it's time for me to build a career
And spend fifty years earning more
It's time to plan for your wife and kids
And dig a grave inside your house's floors

Now I'm freaking out and rolling on the floors
When'd these walls start closing in
I wish I'd talk it out or get some therapy
But oh God, there's no way for me to win

We called till three last night, or was it four
We called it love last week but was it more
I want to crawl in bed and get some head
And fall asleep in someone's arms
I want to feel your body next to mine
And have you right on the tip of my tongue
I want to take some uppers, take some downers
Drown myself in the tub
I want to take my razor and cut myself
And paint the walls red with my blood

I don't know what I want anymore
This life ain't worth fighting for
I don't know what I want anymore
I'm tired of waking up
I'm tired of waking up

I'm tired of fixing my hair in the morning
I'm tired of
I'm tired of fixing my hair in the morning

I can't see us living together
I can't see us living together
I can't see us living together
I can't see us living together
I can't see us living together
I can't see us living together
I can't see us living together
I can't see us living together