Stuck Inside

Don't feel good right now
I might have a breakdown
Who am I, what is life
What is death
I'm wasting time
Feel like I'm burning myself to the floor
Feel like I cannot unlock my own door
All of the drama and all of the music
Won't mean a thing if I start to abuse it
I just wish I knew God was there
Did before and I never cared
But now everything's so blurry
Now I'm inside of a hurry
Now I am working a job
Now my imagination is gone
Now I can't make a stop
Don't wanna die or live or think
My gosh
I just wanna get away
Go to the place where everything is fine and I feel okay
Don't worry bout' the end or the pain
Or the lies or the hate
Or anything that anybody says
I need a shelter for
My little heart in the sores
I feel overly sore
I need a break before I lose more
I need a break before I lose more
I can't do this
Yes you can
No I can't
Hold my hand
I'm alone so I indulge
In my thoughts and feel repulsed
I'm ruining my future why
I just wanna sit and cry
I just wanna find myself tonight
Without being ignorant feel like life's alright

I'm afraid
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
And I don't wanna die
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
I'm afraid I'm
I don't wanna die
I'm afraid you're afraid
I'm afraid you're afraid
Everybody is afraid to die
Yeah I don't wanna be misunderstood
I don't wanna sit and read a book
I don't wanna burn in hell forever
I don't wanna live in heaven either

Beating me into the floor
I don't want another war
Wish I would call my dad
Wish I would take that back
There's a can of worms that I don't touch
I'm standing here on my last crutch
Everything's fine, everything's fine, everything's fine
Everything's not
I feel like an adult
Wait stop everybody halt
Forget that I'mma' switch jobs
I need paper to help me sob
I need something to keep me alive
Drinking Monster's I'm awake at five
Sitting here watching the sun rise
Day's ruined didn't sleep last night
Gotta' chug another can
Venting loud on Instagram
Go to work I can barely stand
At least I succeed with my plans
Gotta' get a buck
Need to be struck
Dead but alive
Ask myself what the
I still keep the beats clean
That's all that's left that keeps me
(Separate) My dad says I reject it
That's dad two not dad one
He could be right I hate his lessons
I know he's right my hatred lessens
Know that he knows what's best for me
He's probably smarter
He's forty three
But here I am here I stand
I'm scared to live
So scared I ran

I'm afraid
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
And I don't wanna die
I'm afraid
I'm afraid
I'm afraid I'm
I don't wanna die
I'm afraid you're afraid
I'm afraid you're afraid
Everybody is afraid to die
Yeah I don't wanna be misunderstood
I don't wanna sit and read a book
I don't wanna burn in hell forever
I don't wanna live in heaven either