Dream

I'm lying by myself in my bed, was I just crying
Asked the man in the sky, "Do I keep fighting?"
Too many thoughts in my head so I start writing
Tried to be optimistic but now I'm lying

I don't know, I don't know why things just have to change
I had it fixed but now I'm thinking it was just a break
Who would've thought that it was always meant to be this way
Does it always get so dark or is it just the age

Am I stuck in a dream or maybe a nightmare
Life ain't what it seems, 'the fuck is in the air
I would let myself sleep but I am just too scared
Of what happened to me, how come nobody cares

These days I don't really know what I want
It's not because of feelings or cause of the time that I lost
I told myself I'll be fine as long as I keep going up
But I've been thinking that I have to be someone that I'm not

These days we have to control who we are
There's not a person in sight that could give what you want
You got to show yourself that you are able to run
Out and get what you want from the world

Everybody keeps saying I should just be me
But, lately I'm asking "Who the fuck is he?"
Nobody around me wants to see me win
If only they knew all of the places I've been

The demons keep asking when I'm giving up, yeah
Setbacks pushing me to the side, I've had enough
I've only been down this road a time before, yeah
Message was sent out to myself but I need one more, yeah

I would've been myself if it didn't break me
I built a grave for my past, it finally changed me
I drew my life, dark colors weren't in the painting
For once in life it's myself who came to save me, oh

But then life crashed down and I became
The person I threw away

Am I stuck in a dream or maybe a nightmare
Life ain't what it seems, 'the fuck is in the air
I would let myself sleep but I am just too scared
Of what happened to me, how come nobody cares

I don't know, I don't know
What the fuck I'm supposed to do
I had it all, had it all
But then it splattered on the wall
Cut to me, living free
I was the person I wanted to be
Cut to now, still falling down
Pick myself up on the ground
Put my heart into the sound