staring at the ceiling

I'm always doubting myself
I overthink until I feel so overwhelmed
But you'd never know it
Cuz I never show it
I ask about that girl who's always texting you
And you say that there's no one that you're talking to
I want to believe it
But I can't believe it cuz I know that

She's more than a friend
Even though you pretend
And now I'm looking through her pictures lying in my bed
She's got blue eyes and icy pale skin
We don't compare except she loves to sing
You say she's not your type
Yet she calls each night
I kinda feel bad cuz she's caught up in a lie
She's probably wondering what you're doing
Alone and staring at her ceiling
Thinking

Maybe he already went to sleep
Or maybe he's out driving in his worn out jeep yeah she's
Hoping that you'll think of her at night
She's wishing that she's all that's on your mind
But you'll never know cuz you're with me
While she don't have a clue
She's staring at the ceiling without you

Without you
Without you
She's staring at the ceiling without you

You pull me close while you're stroking my hair
Yet I can tell that your mind is elsewhere
Then you start asking if I am okay
No I don't know what to say

Then comes the part when we say our goodbye's
You get in your car
While I try not to cry
Even though you keep on saying you'll be back soon
I wish I could believe it but deep down I know that

It's not all in my head
That girl is not your friend
I bet you're doing what you did to me to her instead
She probably makes you feel so special
Like kiss your neck all slow and gentle
I don't wanna be right
That's why I call each night
Bet she feels bad cuz I'm caught up in a lie
And now I'm wondering what you're doing
Alone and staring at my ceiling
Thinking

Maybe he already went to sleep
Or maybe he's out driving in his worn out Jeep
Yeah I'm hoping that you'll think of me at night
I'm wishing that I'm all that's on your mind
But you'll never know cuz you're with her while I don't
Have a clue
I'm staring at the ceiling without you

Without you
Without you

Oh all the empty promises
All the impossibilities
Was this just a fantasy you painted in my head
Was it ever real or was I just misled
Remember what I said when we were lying in your bed
Told you I was scared of love and you said "hey baby
You're enough"

Guess I wasn't enough for you
Guess I wasn't "someone" to you
Guess no matter how hard I really tried to love
I think I've finally given up
I bet you're thinking

Maybe she already went to sleep
Or maybe she's out with that guy you long to be
Yeah you're hoping that I'll think of you at night
You're wishing that you're all that's on my mind
But I'm too busy loving all the things that you had failed to see
And now you're staring at your ceiling without me