Damien Karras

We used to talk a lot
We used to be friends
Knew i'd count on you in the end
Now you're just a room in my head
Read the book, i know all that it says
Every scripture i pondered in dread
I saw buckets of people all shuffling dead
With a tie on their neck and some blood in their beds
But fuck it, it's something i guess
Personally i turned to rap and some weed
Panic attacks and the lack of some sleep
I had a surgery back in '01
And i think that i tragically had to become
Someone that was sheltered and kept from the light
I almost lost every aspect of life
And it still feels like there is no difference now
God lift me up and i cut me back down
But i never look down on those people for nothing
It'd probably help me, just hoping for something
But i chose to go and bet all on myself
My biggest mistake was believing in hell
Cause nobody's punished, i see its absurd
My father, a rapist, is free as a bird
And he use to have his own issues with christ
Went back and forth between different lives
And when i get scared, and that shit has been often
I fold up my hands like i'm over a coffin
My mother has cancer and i feel exhausted
Trying to find me some flame but i lost it
So why i been talking to god again?
Cause he has done nothing for me
And i never got any fuckin relief
Why i still wanna believe?

I walk in and then i burst into a ball of flames
I walk in and then i burst into a ball of flames