Therapy

I'm just a man, there are skeletons to find
Come take my hand, you'll see the fingerprints on them are mine
Somehow, I've drifted from what I once saw divine
But I'll be damned if I can't make it past tonight
Cause I've been waved, and I'm reaching for another light
Slowing time, is my therapy to realize
That I'm changing in ways that I can't deny
Pushing people away, from another life

I wear a sapphire ring
It brings me closer to who made me a king
And I don't feel that I could be afraid of a thing
What I've seen I appreciate is traumatizing
But I can't let an old man dig around in my head
I just made it back, I could have failed instead
Your science is good enough and nor are your meds
I ain't living depressed, but sometimes I'm stressed

I'm flying, I'm riding, I'm fighting hard
I'm writing, surviving, I'm trying hard
You might be surprised on what doesn't last
There's people that I'm leaving in the past
When I was a kid I had a night light
Somehow, I've grown up and I like the dark
Songs that I used to get down to daily
Now being a different feeling to my heart

My body and my mind are on a tread
Sometimes my past and present don't connect
I've learned to move away forgive forget
Moments good and bad that I've suppressed
Today I trust my truths, what's proved instead
Flying through the skies, my hearts my home, I feel content
At times I feel I'm not what I present
Sometimes I wonder what I've not addressed

I'll change my mind if I want
And I might change my life if I want
Just a one-way flight if I want
Cause I'll take my time if I want
I would choose not to know if I could
Sweet ignorant bliss if I could
All the things that I miss, if I could
But to grow was the option to take and I could
My minds out the woods
And I don't rely on the guy on the wood
I drank I went out every second was good
I knew how to climb from the hole where I stood
The hole in my heart now I've filled with again
I've grown from the man that I was back then
My friends say my mums would be smiling if she saw now, if she saw how, yeah she Wow to where my path has led
I'm drifting away from the feelings I held
I'm drifting away from the words that I said
I feel I've betrayed what I wanted to be
But if I was him, I know I'd be dead
I see I'm repeating the same situations
Maybe it's something I want from the past
I'm taking charge of the path I'm creating
I look to the sky for my shining star

My body and my mind are on a tread
Sometimes my past and present don't connect
I've learned to move away forgive forget
Moments good and bad that I've suppressed
Today I trust my truths, what's proved instead
Flying through the skies, my hearts my home, I feel content
At times I feel I'm not what I present
Sometimes I wonder what I've not addressed