F*** Our History

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For sexual assault and abuse
Skip it now if those are touchy subjects for you.

We used to be so close
Now you're just somebody who's haunting me like a ghost
I got used to your abuse, and now that I removed myself

I'm scared of becoming you
I don't want to be near you no more
Think you're rubbing off on me
I can feel your poison in my core
I can feel it happening
You don't deserve this much leverage
Can't put up with where this is headed
I say fuck our history
I'm leaving you before you ruin me.

It seems like every week
I hear something that makes me shudder I find it hard to breathe
And I can't seem to look you in the eye
But I don't recognize the guy that's inside of you

They say every woman has a scar
From a man who took advantage and bandages don't go far
All us men are guilty cuz we're not doing our part
And to be honest I'm guilty too, and I need to raise the bar
See my old friend, between drinking
and treating us like punching bags,
He talked about girls in a way that raised red flags.
So now when I hear about the girls he assaulted,
It keeps me up at night because it is my fault
I enabled his behavior for so many years
Brushed it off, hoping these tendencies would disappear.
Now he's ruined other lives and he's lost himself.
Thinking back to when we were kids, I should have asked for help.
But I didn't, I kept it to me and i know I'll have to live with this.
In my own hell.

I'm scared of becoming you
I don't want to be near you no more
Think you're rubbing off on me
I can feel your poison in my core
I can feel it happening
You don't deserve this much leverage
Can't put up with where this is headed
I say fuck our history
I'm leaving you before you ruin me.

It seems like every week
I hear something that makes me shudder I find it hard to breathe
And I can't seem to look you in the eye
But I don't recognize the guy that's inside of you



Credits
Writer(s): Noah Bollow
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