saw ur mom at the grocery store

I saw your mom at the grocery store
She texted me afterwards
I felt like falling on the floor
She said, "I miss you, hope you're doing well?
And I wish we saw you more"
And I knew that was a lie

'Cause you haven't talked to me in at least six months
I thought that I was healed but now I'm open like a cut
'Cause I saw your mom at the grocery store
And she asked me how I was

I should have told her the truth
That I don't know who I am after you
And I can't stand looking at that fucking pair of
Shoes I used to wear with you
Or the pictures that I framed of you
Oh, I, feel like I'm split in two
But I asked about your sister instead
'Cause that's what nice girls do

Driving home, the roads all look the same to me
I pass your house, I block out all the memories
And I don't miss you, I don't wish you well
I wish you felt what I had felt
She has your eyes, she looks like you

I should have told her the truth
That I don't know who I am after you
And I can't stand looking at that fucking pair of
Shoes I used to wear with you
Or the pictures that I framed of you
Oh, I, feel like I'm split in two

I should've let her know that I deleted all the playlists on my phone
'Cause every time that song plays, I just wanna call you
So, I meditate now, but the silence is almost just as loud
Oh, I feel like I'm split in two
But I ask about your sister
Oh, I asked about your sister

I should've told her the truth
I've been terrified, for months, of seeing you
Every white car makes my heart stop
I cut my hair, I meditate
Everything, but change my name
Oh, I, I'll never be the same