3:15 Am
Holdin' in my thoughts and it don't help
They fillin' up my brain hope it don't swell
All I got is music, and I know I'm soundin' stupid
But I gotta get my thoughts out somehow
Everybody wanna claim they know me
Do they really know me?
Do they know I wanna be with Kobe?
Do they know I need someone to hold me?
They gone tell me that they there for me
But they don't ever show me
And they always gonna try to ho' me
Talkin' shit right behind my back
But to my face we're homies
Once I'm up don't you try to bro me
Got my friends and my family
But I'm still so lonely
Yeah I'm Bini I'm the one and only
And I keep it real, don't gotta lie, I am not no phony
In the future I'm gone win some trophies
If you look so closely
You can tell that I'm dying slowly
This shit ain't new, cause this been me just for a while
In my backyard lookin up at the clouds
Praying that my life gettin' better
But it's not gettin' better
Lookin' right up in the mirror and I frown
Got me thinkin' maybe I should drown
Got me feelin' like a clown
Got me thinkin' I'm not wanted in my town
Got me thinkin' how I'm always feelin' down
Got me thinkin' maybe I'll just grab a gun and shoot myself won't make a sound
Got me thinkin' whats the point in looking around
It's pointless, always fuckin' met with disappointment
Livin' every day like it's a coin flip
All my thoughts feel voiceless
Wish that I could flush em down the toilet
Wonder if my day gone end up joyless
Man I feel exploited
Wish I had somebody as my ointment
They talkin' shit about me for enjoyment
But when I'm alone I know I'm really not alone I'm with these voices
I'm my biggest doubter
But I'm never givin' up I am not a coward
The voices in my head I don't give em power
I be pushin' them away and they come back louder
Lookin at my parents and I'm makin' them prouder
I'm really bouta grow you can call me a flower
Be telling me I'm short but I stand like a tower
The devil in my head, 3:15, pretty sure it's his hour
Runnin' it back with my old self
Back then everything was so well
Lookin' at me now I'm like oh well
Catchin' all these thoughts like I'm Odell
Lookin' to my friends I'm like bro help
They tellin' me to deal with it yo' self
Dealin' with my thoughts I got no help
If I tell you secrets please don't tell
I really got no one to talk to
Ain't got a job, I'll be livin' like Ross soon
Why work for a boss, when I know I'm a boss too
When I'm big, don't wanna' hear bout the times that I called you
I'm mad at you for doing it, you're mad that I caught you
Always tryna fight with me, I don't wanna argue
Thinkin' bout all the shit that I would've bought you
Guess you never thought that maybe I got a heart too
You sayin' you got scars, but just know I got scars too
You think that you a baller, but just know that I'll ball soon
While you haters hate I'm gone be whippin' my car soon
I'm shootin' for the moon, know that I'll be a star soon
I'll be up on stage, while you'll be at a bar soon
While you stayin' close to home, I bet I'll be far soon
I'll be spittin' rapid fire like I pressed R2
Keep hating on my family, I'll be up with my mom soon
Better not forget Imma' be up with my dad soon
I'll be buying everything that you wish you had soon
You happy that I'm down, well just know you'll be mad soon
Gon' be telling everybody that I'm so wack soon
Don't wanna do a feature now, to me that ain't bad news
Just know that you'll be beggin' to be put on a track soon
You'll be countin' followers, I'll be countin' my stacks soon
Ain't wanna have to do this, but just know that I had to
They fillin' up my brain hope it don't swell
All I got is music, and I know I'm soundin' stupid
But I gotta get my thoughts out somehow
Everybody wanna claim they know me
Do they really know me?
Do they know I wanna be with Kobe?
Do they know I need someone to hold me?
They gone tell me that they there for me
But they don't ever show me
And they always gonna try to ho' me
Talkin' shit right behind my back
But to my face we're homies
Once I'm up don't you try to bro me
Got my friends and my family
But I'm still so lonely
Yeah I'm Bini I'm the one and only
And I keep it real, don't gotta lie, I am not no phony
In the future I'm gone win some trophies
If you look so closely
You can tell that I'm dying slowly
This shit ain't new, cause this been me just for a while
In my backyard lookin up at the clouds
Praying that my life gettin' better
But it's not gettin' better
Lookin' right up in the mirror and I frown
Got me thinkin' maybe I should drown
Got me feelin' like a clown
Got me thinkin' I'm not wanted in my town
Got me thinkin' how I'm always feelin' down
Got me thinkin' maybe I'll just grab a gun and shoot myself won't make a sound
Got me thinkin' whats the point in looking around
It's pointless, always fuckin' met with disappointment
Livin' every day like it's a coin flip
All my thoughts feel voiceless
Wish that I could flush em down the toilet
Wonder if my day gone end up joyless
Man I feel exploited
Wish I had somebody as my ointment
They talkin' shit about me for enjoyment
But when I'm alone I know I'm really not alone I'm with these voices
I'm my biggest doubter
But I'm never givin' up I am not a coward
The voices in my head I don't give em power
I be pushin' them away and they come back louder
Lookin at my parents and I'm makin' them prouder
I'm really bouta grow you can call me a flower
Be telling me I'm short but I stand like a tower
The devil in my head, 3:15, pretty sure it's his hour
Runnin' it back with my old self
Back then everything was so well
Lookin' at me now I'm like oh well
Catchin' all these thoughts like I'm Odell
Lookin' to my friends I'm like bro help
They tellin' me to deal with it yo' self
Dealin' with my thoughts I got no help
If I tell you secrets please don't tell
I really got no one to talk to
Ain't got a job, I'll be livin' like Ross soon
Why work for a boss, when I know I'm a boss too
When I'm big, don't wanna' hear bout the times that I called you
I'm mad at you for doing it, you're mad that I caught you
Always tryna fight with me, I don't wanna argue
Thinkin' bout all the shit that I would've bought you
Guess you never thought that maybe I got a heart too
You sayin' you got scars, but just know I got scars too
You think that you a baller, but just know that I'll ball soon
While you haters hate I'm gone be whippin' my car soon
I'm shootin' for the moon, know that I'll be a star soon
I'll be up on stage, while you'll be at a bar soon
While you stayin' close to home, I bet I'll be far soon
I'll be spittin' rapid fire like I pressed R2
Keep hating on my family, I'll be up with my mom soon
Better not forget Imma' be up with my dad soon
I'll be buying everything that you wish you had soon
You happy that I'm down, well just know you'll be mad soon
Gon' be telling everybody that I'm so wack soon
Don't wanna do a feature now, to me that ain't bad news
Just know that you'll be beggin' to be put on a track soon
You'll be countin' followers, I'll be countin' my stacks soon
Ain't wanna have to do this, but just know that I had to
Credits
Writer(s): Albin Vucetaj
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