Violents

I'm only an hour away, don't call me back in five
I'd pick up the phone but I'm paralyzed
Self-sabotage, I don't wanna be the one that's on your mind
Even though you're the one that's on my mind

I hate the worlds on fire, I can't be satisfied online
I've set aside some time to look into your eyes
Your friends don't mind 'til I'm out of their way
And they're looking at me like I'm on display
Don't love me, you'll break me
But I know you're here to stay

Hey, nice to meet you
Now, come back to bed
I rescind my thoughts
And the things that I've said
I've no reason for you
I'm at my wits' end
You're no good for me
But I'll see you again, my friend

They talk, we fall
Well, fuck it, who cares at all?
Come closer, about ten paces down
It's all about perspective now
You look just like me
We're perfectly found
As we hit the ground

Hey, nice to meet you
Now, come back to bed
I rescind my thoughts
And the things that I've said
I've no reason for you
I'm at my wits' end
You're no good for me
But I'll see you again, my friend

I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
Destructive and violent
At peace with my sins
You open the window, say
"Hey, how've you been?"
I'll step through and call out
"Where do I begin?"

I don't quite believe it
Am I wasting my time?
Writing songs about my therapy and all the red wine
I'll look further inward, a fleeting design
I'm caught in this cycle
Line after line