neon

Feeling froggy, wanna leap, I don't feel real, been losing sleep
Keep it real with me, I'm just an extra in my life, uh
Never was the star, always outshined outside my view
Put that pedal to the metal, running away while I redline
Supercharger screaming tryna bang out all this music
Taking hearts, my left and right
And releasing to no amusement
Still a nobody to most, nearly a failure to myself
I'm not happy with who I am, I feel like TV static, god damn

Reassurance always never lasts for me
At this point I need concrete proof, need to blow up real fast for me
I need to get my name out there in neon lights
My fantasy since 17 years old, when I was told that it is happening
Eventually, but that day hasn't come and it is saddening
It's sickening, I'm feeling ill, it's gut-wrenching
Every day and night, I think I'm going out of spite
Favorite artist just retired, bittersweet
But it wasn't desired

Mister kill myself, I'll keep my name in all their hearts
They'll go worship all my art
I think I'm losing it sometimes
I worry people with my lyrics
Sorry, I just need to vent my mind
Got too much shit inside my brain, an illness just might be my game
Analyzing everyone with watchful eyes, and freezing up in conflict
Gazing out with nightmare eyes, and staring thousand yards away
Focus something small, do not convey emotion
Never let these strangers see a weakness in your face
Keeping my façade alive, they'd never know my psyche
I'm skittish around these strangers, when they're near me I feel flighty
Frightened by the thought of judgement cast upon my life untidy
While I'm just doing my best, trying to get me through the life
And I'm too much of a pussy, I'm afraid to kill myself
So I'm pressing through the shit that I've been feeling on the low
I don't think they'd ever know just how I feel being me
Being scared of being no one in the end of everything
And the neon lights just keep calling my name
I need to see myself up there



Credits
Writer(s): Yuki Unknown
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