Awake

I lie awake at night
waiting for you to call
I lie awake at night
waiting for the sky to fall
can't dream the dreams away
can't find another escape
can't lie I'm not OK
that's just OK

hey
you know what keeps me up at night
When I'm lying in the dark then I turn on the light
for the fifth time I can't sleep
it's too hot I can't breathe
and no amount of fan can give me what I need

I need a sign I need some type of faith
that the wind and wins are gonna blow my way
I'm being ghosted by my future
it broke up with today
I need a guide to tell me it's gonna be ok

been on hold for ten years if I hang up the phone
if I hang up the mic am I gonna end up alone
if I cut the cord on my singular lifeline
Am I gonna miss the signal for the shot of a lifetime

going mobile like on the move
call me a mover cause making moves is all I do
praise for my work ethic
is the only anesthetic
numbing out the question
did I do enough to get it

I lie awake at night
waiting for you to call
I lie awake at night
waiting for the sky to fall
can't dream the dreams away
can't find another escape
can't lie I'm not OK
That's just OK

I've been lying in this bed
but only to myself
thinking maybe is it time
to put this dream on the shelf
these four corners like a boxing ring
my round's up I'm down what's that – ding ding
hello – it's reality calling
got no ID how do I trust that's the voice I'm following

if they told me I won't make it
would I thank them and move on
or even believe them no
and that's what keeps me dragging on

all I want is peace love and my dreams
they told me once I'm lucky
if I get two out of the three

trying to glow up trying to show up
anywhere that's got a mic just forcing myself to go up

part of me is out there making it happen
part of me is here waiting for my door to get tapped on
and say you're next
I'm ready
I'm no lightweight I'm heavy
the wait is up
and so am I
and they won't ever forget me

I lie awake at night
waiting for you to call
I lie awake at night
waiting for the sky to fall
can't dream the dreams away
can't find another escape
can't lie I'm not OK
that's just OK
I lie awake at night
waiting for you to call
I lie awake at night
waiting for the sky to fall
can't dream the dreams away
can't find another escape
can't lie I'm not OK
that's just OK
I lie awake at night
waiting for you to call
I lie awake at night
waiting for the sky to fall
can't dream the dreams away
can't find another escape
can't lie I'm not OK
that's just OK