Thinking Instances

I've been having
These thoughts
Their haunting
They never live me
They never live me
Yeah
They got me inhibited by insecurity
Cursed
Autophobic
Not believing what I be reflecting
To really be me
Looking
But never seeing
Numb
But still hurting
Stitching
These wounds but the bleeding
Is never stopping
What am I
In the holy grail is where they keep my blood
On my head is where they keep thorny vines
Kneel
As they say my lines
Preach my rhymes
Say my name
Speak to me end with amen
Yeah I'm the man
Even my enemies never look me in the lens
Yeah
You'll are kings by owning lands
I'm a king by owning planets
Yeah my work is everywhere
You'll be getting highly paid for studying it
Yeah
I got the power
I got the glory
I get the praises
I'm at the top
I'm too forward
You'll never keep up
Even though I be stopping to tie my laces
Yeah
Yeah
I'm over heating
My bars are popping
I got my calibre as my sidekick
Taking over leading
Living some needing upgrading
Yeah
If this is a competition
Then why the fuck am I winning
When I haven't done anything

I'm over taken
By my thoughts

Yeah
I try to forget them
I get them clutching
Grasping tight
Their claws bruising
Living a scar that's never healing
With my heart
Full of contention
Catching and breaking
Speaking
And getting pushed
Into being tacit
Bro
I've been fake just to keep some people close to me
Been a friend of people who never wanted to be friends with me
Shit
Acting fine when I'm hurting
Just to get them smiling
Not keeping it real
Cause when I do
I get them hating

Thinking instances