Familiar Ceilings

I've looking at the stars out my window-sill
Reminiscing about decisions I'm regretting still
Vision getting blurry, so unstable like I'm off a pill
Don't know if I'm really living life, or if I'm even real

Life is full of meaning, they say you should understand
But to me it feel like magic, I can't even seem to grasp
All these people say I'm young but I feel like an old man
Someone tell me, is it normal, I can't even seem to stand

Mind is wandering, pondering second guesses
Another 2am message
These memories from the past, started creeping on me again
Now this pillow under my head getting wetter, now I remember
You're never gonna get better if you're pushing to forget

Looking up so high, I can't even see the ground no more
Tell me why am I staying up so late
Sleep is what I need to make me do more

Now I'm falling down again
Lotta different feelings gonna come around again
You know I got way too much to count in my head
Yeah yeah yeah
Someone tell me how to sleep, cuz this ceiling's all I'm seeing lately
Yeah, yeah

Breaking through the surface with my hand
Pull my feet up off-a my bed
Now I'm pacing up down again
Do she see me as just a friend
Take a sip now I feel refreshed
Lying down, like I never left
No expression, be looking blank
Many feelings, but feeling dead

But no, it's okay, yeah
These emotions bottled all day, yeah
Lying down like it's a party, yeah you know that's all me
Pictures in my head I'm drawing, ain't no time for

Falling down again
Lotta different feelings gonna come around again
You know I got way too much to count in my head
Yeah yeah yeah
Someone tell me how to sleep, cuz this ceiling's all I'm seeing lately