*Partial to Lavender

Sometimes I find myself staring at the wall
Thinking what went wrong
Then at 2:47 am I'm sobbing to some 2000s
Coldplay song
For a whole year I hated your guts and that hatred
Morphed into pining
Why did it have to be you to make me realize what
I've always been hiding
It's almost been at year at this point so why can't I
Just move along

Now when I smell lavender I think of you - why'd you
have to ruin that for me?
Hate the word infatuation but that's the way it was,
God it makes me green
You reminded me of the sea, and you made
me weak in the knees
But I'm still partial to lavender, and when I see a vine
I still count the leaves

Don't know how I thought you felt the same, I guess
I just got vibes
I loved the t shirt you wore one day, I thought it
Looked really nice
Too many times would I look at your collarbone and
Think god, I just want a hug
Now I know to never trust my instincts and to never
stick to my gut

Now when I smell lavender I think of you - why'd you
have to ruin that for me?
Hate the word infatuation but that's the way it was,
God it makes me green
You reminded me of the sea, and you made made
me weak in the knees
But I'm still partial to lavender, and when I see a vine
I still count the leaves

Ive learned my lesson so why do I wanna be
Retaught
I thought your hair was really pretty, liked how it flew
in the wind a lot
Haven't talked to you in a year, and it makes me feel
like I suck
How did it end up like this
How did I end up like this

Now when I smell lavender I think of you - why'd you
have to ruin that for me?
Hate the word infatuation but that's the way it was,
God it makes me green
You reminded me of the sea, and you made made
me weak in the knees
But I'm still partial to lavender, and when I see a vine
I still count the leaves