In the Snow (feat. Lucaren)

Don't know what to say
Just wanna live, life's in the way
Got to the top looked down at the lot
Fell back to the bottom and pushed it away
Telling myself I need to be calm
Beast is loose better sound the alarm
Don't need to be famous I know what pain is
Physically broken mentally harmed
Grass isn't always greener
Doubts get louder, critics get meaner
Too many man say they don't like me
I don't really like them either
Broken dreams give the morning dread
Barely alive but I'm still not dead
Devoid of light, I don't hate my life
But I've still got the number two on my head

I ran from the cops and they told me to stop
Now I've fallen far from the top
I don't regret anything that I've done
But I hate myself for the things that I've not
So, where can I go?
Hostiles approach and my gun shoots dust
When it's held to my dome
All these years and I still wanna know
All these years and I still wanna
Run from the cops when they tell me to stop
Now I've fallen far from the top
I don't regret anything that I've done
But I hate myself for the things that I've not
So, where can I go?
Hostiles approach and my gun shoots dust
When it's held to my dome
And I still wanna know how I fought through the fire
And got killed in the snow

I remember when pain was realer
When my best friend was a drug dealer
Walk in the mind of a man who's lost it
Screaming for sight but I can't see clearer
Before I came out of the cervix
I was sicker than 4chan servers
So stressed out and I'm feeling nervous
Dream of the day when everyone's heard us
Keeps me awake at night
Finding wings I want to take flight
Trust me I love the 0121
But I don't wanna stay there all my life
Do you think this is fun for me?
Mike said a grand don't come for free
These are the fears that I deal with daily
I hope that you're sat comfortably
Been two years since my first CD
This year it's maybe an EP
Head in the clouds and I'm feeling breezy
Trust me though it wasn't always easy
Wasn't always blessed
Thought of quitting I must confess
They warned me Satan would be attractive
That's why I'm fighting a devil in a dress
Dealing with excess this is why I get stressed
Man are putting me up on a throne with a headdress
It's not that I can't handle the pressure
But I'm acting reckless
Temptation kept flirting again
I lost my way I was hurting again
I know that I seem uncertain again
But I'm not gonna go for a burton again
God gave me another chance to survive
Null to the core but it's time to revive
Off with a rucksack never gonna look back
Never shouting "no cameras tonight!"
When I'm onstage take a snapshot
Big Figure.09 logo on the backdrop
Show's locked off so the crowd is gassed up
Russian roulette but I hit the jackpot
The world's so dark
Tears still falling around my heart
Never stop barring I am still starving
The world will know how I made my mark
Last year I nearly lost my sanity
Saw that the kingdom's ruled by vanity
Cut my ties with a lot of small fries
On the day I got banned from the O2 Academy

I ran from the cops and they told me to stop
Now I've fallen far from the top
I don't regret anything that I've done
But I hate myself for the things that I've not
So, where can I go?
Hostiles approach and my gun shoots dust
When it's held to my dome
All these years and I still wanna know
All these years and I still wanna
Run from the cops when they tell me to stop
Now I've fallen far from the top
I don't regret anything that I've done
But I hate myself for the things that I've not
So, where can I go?
Hostiles approach and my gun shoots dust
When it's held to my dome
And I still wanna know how I fought through the fire
And got killed in the snow