Inside a Scar

Minutes from redemption
I am cowering away
Instead of storming through the furnace
I can only keep my place

There's an angel in the attic
Keeping tabs on all my friends
Wishing I was someone else
And eternity was different

Don't look now
Don't look

With a crashing of the gong
I hear the principles of life
In every beat of my rundown heart
I know exactly what is right

But wanting isn't doing
It only swirls about my mind
Until the thought becomes a memory
Of the times I never tried, I never tried

Don't look now
Don't look now

I am desperate to cough it up
Before it chokes me out
I can feel in my throat
But it never leaves my mouth

She interprets silence coldly
Like some sinister intent
And is the mirror I am holding
And the opposite of what I meant

I overflow excuses
"God, I really need you now
I wish that I could hate her
But I don't know how!"

And if I really mean it
Then it wouldn't be so hard
Some people, they just like the way
It feels to be inside a scar

Don't look now
Don't look now
Don't look now
Don't look

One foot out the door
I swear I'm falling to my knees
They're pressed against my chest
'Til I can barely breath

I'll never be the same
I let you rearrange my soul
Convinced a change can mend the hopeless
A gift for the immortal

Chewing on my lip
I have to hide it as it bleeds
Or I'll reveal my greatest secret
For everyone to see

I hope you find redemption
I hope you make it last
I hope you reminisce and focus on
The times you made me laugh along

Don't look now
Don't look now
Don't look now
Don't look now

(It won't be the same)
Don't look now
(Someday you'll understand)
Don't look now
(You could forget my name)
Don't look now
(And that would be okay)
Don't look now

Another life goes by
The sun sets like before
I miss you when I try
But not a moment more

I stood there in a hole
A headstone at my face
Tried to convince myself
It was not a grave mistake

"You could come unglued," she said
"But you'd still be stuck."
So, I tore myself in two
Now I'm twice the man I was

Maybe I could've or should've learned back then
But tomorrow's girl is a lucky one
I get to try again

She'll see my faults and all my failures
My tepid unsung heart
She'll see the many beautiful things
That make us who me are

A million little scars
Stitched up broken hearts
I'm grateful for the start
Now here we are