Varsity

Holding my breath on the sidelines
Hear a million names but never mine
I'm waiting patiently
But in reality
I'm lonely in a crowd of a thousand
Searching all the faces in the stadium
A cinematic tragedy
Just another face on the screen

Under Friday night lights I can't hide that I
Feel invisible even though it's as bright as daylight
I can't quiet my mind

I know I'm not an athlete
But I'm running like I'm on the team
Towards something to satisfy the loneliness that resides inside me
I'm just searching for a victory
To be handed a gold trophy
For all of the exercise
In the sport of my life
Trying to be
In the same league as varsity

Intercept stares from the third string
I'd trade my t-shirt for his jersey
Just to fit in with him
Cause I'm the farthest thing from him
Just short of six feet but well over five
I'm tall enough to stand but too short to survive
In the world they've set up
But in their world I'm set up

Under Friday night lights I can't hide that I
Feel invisible even though it's as bright as daylight
I can't quiet my mind

I know I'm not an athlete
But I'm running like I'm on the team
Towards something to satisfy the loneliness that resides inside me
I'm just searching for a victory
To be handed a gold trophy
For all of the exercise
In the sport of my life
Trying to be
In the same league as varsity

But the halftime shows
And touchdown throws
Won't win the game I'm playing
There's no referees
Or penalties
To punish my decisions
I can't compete
In champion leagues
When I'm still in a scrimmage
Against myself
In the backfield
But I'm in the final seconds
I'm laying down my helmet

I know I'm not an athlete
But I'm running like I'm on the team
Towards something to satisfy the loneliness that resides inside me
I'm just searching for a victory
To be handed a gold trophy
For all of the exercise
In the sport of my life
Trying to be
In the same league as varsity