Juxtaposition (Remastered)

My watch reads midnight and I sway into the void again
My feet don't touch the ground
It's 2am and the sun still hangs around
Burning in the clouds

I sat on top of the roof, she fed me hints of
"I can see our ship going down"
And if I was never meant to be here
Then how the hell will I make it out

The sky is pitch black in the middle of the afternoon
And I don't know what to do
These things just don't make sense next to each other now do they two?
Something I was never meant to wear
And that front door I was never meant to be there
The time I was never meant to share
And a weight that I was never meant to bear
Weighs me down

Theoretically and technically, I'm much older now
My creativity is bursting at the seems
But every pencil that I pick up seems to break
My hands are shaking far too much to a draw picture
And my nails are far too short to write a song
But every thought from the moment that I opened up my window
Somewhere in my mind I've stored it all
And when I think back to the moment
The imagery, so vivid, breaks my heart
I've come so far, and I've driven so long
And I'm far from the start
But everything beneath the skin
My physicality, it perplexes me
Now I question my true nature...
What is real, am I still sleeping?
In that cafe twelve months ago
Or here right in this moment have I finally found myself
Like a picture on the shelf
Simply waits for me to be tall enough to reach
Into my view, into this blue sky of rain washes me away
Carelessly washes me away