Accountability

Just wanted a girl who was nice to me
Who actually wanted me too
In recent years, they've been calling me zaddy
That's not something I was used to
Had a beautiful heart but was physically flawed
Never was short but not really too tall, round as a ball
Gaps in my teeth, and to them I was nothing at all

But as I got older things got better
But still had them same insecurities
They saw a new me, but I was the same me
Just geeking for someone to love me
So if they offered it, I accepted it, without even vetting it
I can't absolve them for how they hurt and played me
But I gotta take some accountability

(Why?)
I don't think I had standards at all
If they were bad and wanted me I gave 'em my heart
I was green as they come, they left me hurt, broken, all the above
I tried to fill my voids with lustful nights and drugs
But I still felt empty, still felt unloved
Wanted to escape it, so I drowned myself in Burnett's or whatever I could

Life has left me so empty
But I have to take some accountability
All my damn insecurities
Made me feel like I was worth nothing
So if they offered it I accepted
I was just glad to have something

Broken
Life hasn't been too fair to me
Have to accept and take accountability for what others did to me
It's not fair, but it's necessary for my healing

So broken
Life hasn't been too fair to me
Have to accept and take accountability for what others did to me
It's not fair, but it's necessary for my healing



Credits
Writer(s): Edward Felton Jr
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