Maybe Then

Never was the cool kid at school
Dismissed as just another nerdy fool
It was lonely for a kid like me
Had a few friends but they didn't stay
Often felt like I could just fade away
Like a ghost only my family could see
And that emptiness followed me everyday
And I'd have given anything just to make it go away

As I got older and harder truths had been learned
Suddenly the tables had been turned
And that sympathetic kid inside was nowhere to be seen
Lost all compassion for the hearts I'd break
Just stopped giving and only would take
The monster I ran from was now my reflection staring back at me
Still that emptiness followed me everyday
And I'd numb myself with anything just to make it go away

Someday I'll love myself again
Someday I'll find that missing piece of me
Someday I'll fill that emptiness
Maybe then I'll finally find some peace

I've come a long way from the person I was
Got a family of my own and friends I can trust
And started giving more than I'd ever take
And yet sometimes I still feel all alone
That old emptiness that followed me is still trying to take control

Someday I'm gonna love myself again
Someday I'll forgive that part of me
Someday I'll fill that emptiness
And maybe then I'll finally find some peace