Loving The Enemy

Hello, I hate to interrupt the fun but I have to express
The past couple of days I've spent basically goin through hell and back
The devil promised that he would never ever stop fighting me
To him I am the devil and that is so easy not to see
You don't mind opening the gates allowing strangers in our sacred space
Inviting traitors to a party to potentially destroy our place
To leave their ugly traces and to desecrate my fathers grave
While I'm collecting shards of broken mirrors just to save some face
And just a moment later I am literally laughing out loud
How dare I justify my weakness with excuses oh so proud

I'm jailbreaking my mind
To take a look behind
My shell shocked self inside
Unsure

You are the consequence of every step I took on my light path
A song without a goal, no destination and no aftermath
I am so happy that I take the time and listen to my pain
Cause pointing fingers at you is just like judging the sun, it is like blaming the rain
Even though I am not sure you understand what I am going through
Well, let me just say I'm learning to love myself through loving you
I do admit I sometimes wish you would acknowledge all the courage it takes
And feel the weight I'm lifting off my shoulders and the massive difference it makes
There is a spark of fear of losing my mind but there has to be
I don't wanna be wounded but I long for vulnerability

I'm jailbreaking my mind
To take a look behind
My shell shocked self inside
Unsure what I will find

Baby I'm only a man
Trying the best I can
Breaking my heart all over
Baby I'm only a man
Tryin the best I can
To reconcile with my pain
Then breaking myself all over again

I'm alone in the forest over candle light
We agreed on you to break my heart tonight
You're somewhere out there dancing with the enemy
Choosing candy over my sanity
I hope I'm not doing the devil any wrong
Ignoring his whisper trying to keep me from singing this love song

I'd set sail before but the stern would burst
You only get so far without losing the anchor first
I can't ignore the call of the sea anymore
The perfect storm is blowing violently offshore
I love you so much thats why I'm not coming back
Cause I want parts of me dead
So I lurk beneath the surface spying on my fearful voice
Kindness is the weapon of choice

I'm jailbreaking my mind
To take a look behind
My shell shocked self inside
Unsure what I will find

I'm jailbreaking my mind
To take a look behind
My shell shocked self inside



Credits
Writer(s): Nader Rahy
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