Can't Chill

(I just can't chill, man)

Is it okay to just like the attention
Tell me it's okay to sit back and not have to unpack all of our friendship
University ruined me, can't chill
Can't stop overanalysing, brooding in scrutiny
Voice in my head says keep your friends close
Take every interaction and run it through the microscope
I don't know - Vetting every moment
Getting ready to call out foul motives
Laser-focused, can't let go

I'm letting my academic brain get in the way
There's no seminar course made to replace
Learning all of someone's ugly and leaving yourself open
Knowing only God can judge and we'll get through it okay
When did problematic become radioactive?
Activism's a practice, not a fashion or tactic
Building a connection takes time and I'll make mine matter
I've got to get out of this bad habit

I gotta get out of this bad habit

I'm learning to pick my battles and let some slide
Can't keep feeling cornered for the rest of my life
At the bottom of a rabbit-hole, thinking I'm the oracle
But really, I just kept digging away from the light
I'm coming armed with facts to a culture war
Thinking I'll leave them all with their jaws on the floor
But no one wants a debate, they just want to chill out
Looking at me like, what're you bringing politics for?

If you want the revolution but won't do the dishes
You'll never be a great leader 'til you throw a good picnic
Listen, if someone said that they'd grant three wishes
I'd want trust, joy, and the will to see what's missing
Once those get going the rest comes easy
You wouldn't even need me, it's peachy
Imagine not treating life as a threat to be tested
Imagine being present instead of projecting