Apple Tree

Waking up feeling indifferently
Do the same routine and towards the same tv
These people around, no, they don't know what she been through
But we all act like every single one's been through it too

Every day at three, glowing up, ready to leave
The same smile, the same tour, the same scars under her sleeve
When every day's like last one
There's too much time to grieve
And too much time to realize there's nothing to achieve
It's five past three as we walk out the door
Conversations, they meant much me
But they meant more
To her than anyone could ever imagine
Especially, undoubtedly with what's about to happen

A friday afternoon, her face changed blue
Some ugly words and slamming the doors shut too
Not even a stupid walk was worth it that day
Not only pills and medication was what she would throw away, no

And I can see the face inside
The rain, as all the footsteps hide
The steps that we took yesterday
Her smile will slowly fade away

In her garden stood an apple tree
No fruits left, but in spring she had some, said she
She had a dog, only she couldn't take care for it
There was nothing left except a broken dream and a metaphor
There were days we'd talk about the weather
And nothing more

But that ain't hard with someone your age, multiplied by four
I know that I should carry on
She's going insane
But first I choose to take a breath
And sing this sad refrain

And I could see your face inside
The rain, as all the footsteps hide
The steps that we took yesterday
Her smile will slowly fade away

No, it ain't ever easy telling someone that you're leaving
Gets kind of worse when they decline the thanks that they're receiving
As tears start falling
I refuse to shed mine
Don't take it personally
Tomorrow it will all be just fine
If you're hearing me, I wonder can we still have that beer?
And if your shell didn't give up, is your mind still here?
I really wish that someone out there could just make me clear
If you eventually found your way out
And chose to disappear

And I could see the face inside
The rain, as all the footsteps hide
The steps that we took yesterday
Her smile will slowly fade away

And I know the world keeps spinning on
And the message stays the same: stay strong
They didn't ask her how she was that day
No one recalls her smile today