Paranoid

Now that you've had some time away from your environment to reflect
And think more about yourself and perhaps the decisions you've made
Are there are any feelings or emotions you feel youth in your position feel but, you know Suppress or keep inside?
Of course man, there's so many
And it's hard to express, cos there's nobody to tell
So we end up doing the wrong things
Doing all these crazy stuff you see on the news
Hmm. Would you be willing to speak about any of these emotions deeper with me?
Yeah sure, but are you sure you're gonna listen though
Yeah, I'm all ears
Alright, say no more

Even though I get respect fam I won't lie, I'm paranoid
When I check my shoulders I look twice
All these hoes wanna be my wife
I judge how you think I don't care bout your thick thighs
I'm watching all my guys with my two eyes
You never know your enemies
Of course I gotta fear guys
Round here we don't know nothing bout no clear skies
We're paranoid, you always see us running from them blue lights

I got like five Gs next to me
Except them, everybody is a threat to me
They say they're wishing for the best for me
I know that deep down these niggas waiting on the death of me
Where I'm from, nobody makes it past 25
I've come a long way from shanks on a pedal bike
They tried to take my life and ever since I had my knife
Fam I'm paranoid and I can't even fucking lie

My nigga K, he got cheffed and he was left to bleed
The killer was white, of course the feds set him free
The systems fucking corrupt this is a travesty
He got less time than someone selling ecstasy
My other guy C, he wasn't even at the scene
But he got given twelve years for a robbery
The painful part, the shit that really got to me
He got a scholarship from Cambridge like the other week

They know he didn't do it but he's stuck in jail
SE5 the dark side, this is living hell
In the streets the beef's deeper than a wishing well
Whether you live to see tomorrow you can never tell
If they catch me with this knife then I ain't getting bail
And if I'm lacking then I'm defo going straight to hell
This is a cycle of jail death money and girls
Sometimes I wish that I was born into a different world

I had knives on my waist in my maths class
I still studied hard tryna get the best marks
My nigga quit football and started selling arms
Now he's doing ten years in the prison yard
That's another life wasted
Another black kid who was just about to make it
Another young boy who had the chance but didn't take it
This could have been my story if I never came to Lagos

Even though I get respect fam I won't lie, I'm paranoid
When I check my shoulders I look twice
All these hoes wanna be my wife
I judge how you think I don't care bout your thick thighs
I'm watching all my guys with my two eyes
You never know your enemies
Of course I gotta fear guys
Round here we don't know nothing bout no clear skies
We're paranoid, you always see us running from them blue lights

I'm sick of all the lies
It only hits the people when a white guy dies
Unless a black nigga did it, they close their eyes
And say the killer was insane or had a problem in life
What about the issues that we're facing on a daily
Walking with my mum and still the feds are tryna chase me
Walking on my own, the opps are tryna blaze me
I've been through everything there ain't a problem that can faze me

I'm young but I'm fucking depressed
I'm thinking bout this money how to make me some bread
I'm going into rap I hope the people impressed
Cos I ain't tryna end up sat down with a tie on a desk
I can't lie to you I'm hungry for success
I'm different from the rest I swear I'm bout to be the best
I ain't a gang member but I still got the connects
So any disrespect and then I'm coming for your head