Cold: Just Thoughts (feat. North Lodestar) [Headphones Version]

Cold, cold as the wind-swept winter tears on trees
Can you ever really know, could you ever know
What the frost conceals below the truth shall seize
Soar above, cut the sky, turn your eyes towards the sun, you can cry if you need to
Light on light, magnified, in the ice shining bright under winter's pale blue
Rise or fall, live or die, wilt or thrive, such as time as it passes though and through
Just thoughts- on you

Here I am playing therapist to myself
Encircled by lies, they ring like a bell
Bronze, bold, brass, brash they yell
And the starlings laugh as I just sit creating this hell
None of this is real, yet it's all I can see
Im chained to my own desperation, it made a mess of me
Now I'm numb, I can't my own feet
But when the piper plays I'm called to dance despite my growing misery

I spend time that I never did have, cause time is broke
Held tight in the desert, too dry about to choke
Forgot all the things I once knew, a shattered refuge, thoughts fall in a slew
What good is wisdom if its greatly abused
When its nothing but a power-play and wielded by fools
A winter's breath in the negative air
and like the northern temperatures plummet, well so does my despair and now its

Cold, cold as a core of stone beneath this mountain
Can I ever really go could I ever go
Could I dive below this surface dark and pallid
It's a soul, it's a ghost, it's too close, its a mystery, it's a memoir
Writing notes just to know who I am just a, a little better
Why the veil on my soul, shouldn't I understand always, through and through
Just thoughts- of you

When I fell, well you know I fell hard
Cause I rode the winds of pride like Icarus from the start
My wings took me high, but then they fractured mid-flight
And how the mind flips like a record when you plummet from heights
It makes me ever wonder why I took to the breeze
Like a desperate captain fighting off the maelstrom on seas
And yet, two walked on water, God assisting the other
And at the thought don't you shudder at the "faith you lack" piece

Peace- peace a piece of it I never did have
Alone in despair a fool and his rags
I went and built my whole world, but like a broken machine
It turned up nothing but a pile of rubble, rubbish, and dreams
And that feared repo man named fate came to call
Heartless enthralled, through the task of it all
He ripped the path from my shoulders yet even through it I'm bolder, but how I wander, I'm older and ever Lost as before and I'm still

Cold as the north-blown mountain peaks
Harsh as the deepest ice-swept sea
Strong as a blushing cornflower hue
Sharp as a lodestar shining true
Dark as an unknown mystery
Old as an ancient oak hearth tree
Stark as the still side of the moon
Lone as a jade mist forest gloom
Rich as a plate of fire sky-high
Free as winds I try to fly
Rough as a greened out copper gate
Brave as a chapel by the lake
Painted pastel pasture hues
Stained glass windows, gold and blue
Tells of mankind's story strife
Yet of one who proffers life