Blue Christmas

The year's boutta change
Think of who done changed up the years
Sure we got gifts and the snow songs
But think of where matter done came from
It started way before the Nativity
They couldn't find an inn on Christmas eve
Mary gave birth to the Maker
but had to lay the Christ in a manger
Christ lived His life as a nomad
The Lord of all riches lived a poor man
Yeah, we love fresh new doodads
But really what's the use when my life ends
If you heed the scriptures, you a wise man
Herod's headings never hitting God's plan
Yo, no way, no chance
Ain't no butterfingers, it's in God's hands
Yeah, Joseph ain't know what to make of it
I don't know if I could've understood either
You telling me... a virgin expectant?
Please, find me the verse, let me read it
The truth really stranger than fiction
The start, was the story of Christmas
The end, was the Lord's crucifixion
Well the end when we going up with Him, yeah

I walk into the mall, happy holidays
They don't know nothin' bout the Maccabees
Don't tell me nun bout X-mas
The world, man, it really don't like Jesus
The world real cold, real icy
Yo, when you think where your mind be?
The next war over ideology
Throw some prayers up to the Christ, please
We all love gifts of existence
But we never really think of who gifted
To be frank, it don't make sense
More Christ, less regrets
Born once so I could twice
The sins on snow, man they all white
The Nativity of the Christ
He left but with Him you right, yeah
Ask the Lord for direction
The best way forward is repentance
No Olajuwon, ain't blocking my blessings
Salvation ensured and cemented
What you think is the story of our whole lives?
Gotta pick between two sides
One came as a babe, coming back down
The other one, bad news, Walter Matthau

It's been
One year since my pops passed
The worst year of my whole life
December 18th, it took place
December 25th, on stone face
I'm just waiting on January
Please, no more Mariah Carey
We got the same birthday
Grew up round the same way
All I want this Christmas
Is a closer walk with Who made me
An Akai Live MPC
And for everyone to know God's grace
Could see sad with my eyes close
Gon' hear Heaven when our lives go
When we all judged after time's rolled
Hope my father sees the Lord's throne

I'm mourning from sun up to evening
I'm fighting back tears, but holding back weeping
Solemn at 'tis the season
I'm grieving
I'm mourning from sun up to evening
I'm fighting back tears, but holding back weeping
Solemn at 'tis the season
I'm grieving
I'm mourning from sun up to evening
I'm fighting back tears, but holding back weeping
Solemn at 'tis the season
I'm grieving
I'm mourning from sun up to evening
I'm fighting back tears, but holding back weeping
Solemn at 'tis the season
I'm grieving

But through it all, I praise You
Jesus, King of Kings and Lord of Lords
We worshipping when the Savior was born
It could very well have not been now
But imagine God was a baby once
Sounds kind of wild... but it's true
It's true, it's true
It's true
Thank You, Thank You
Thank You
For the best gift of all, eternal life
Life without evil, life without pain
Forever and ever, indubitably, bro
Why you think people done died for this, bro
Risked they whole lives for this, man?
It's crazy...
The most valuable gift in life is salvation
And it's given for free
To you and me, everybody
Ever
That's wild

I was 9 in 2007
I think my grandma got me underwear
Needless to say i didn't want that
At all
Now I'm 23, 2021
Thinking to myself, what do I really want?
The old me wanted gold fronts
The new me wants a stable life
The old me wanted hidden hills
The new me wants somewhere concealed
The old me wanted every thrill
The new me knows that's never real
What's the opposite of life again?
I actually don't wanna remind myself
Is this life really where it really ends?
What's there when ain't nothing left?
The question is what's really free?
I know it's not social media
I know it ain't in the media
Cause everything there remedial
The timeline getting tedious
Variants of the same things
No delta, no omicron
It's Tik Tok then the time gone
The construct that we call home
Is not so, rather gon' go
Call Christ see what's going on
Third eyes on the different side
And that's who's tryna take your mind
Tryna play like he really God
Try to call on Santa Clause
Anagram on the first nom
You won't make it past the dial tone
The globe froze like the north pole
It's never been as advertised
The influencers don't make the trends
The true freedom where we never end
So seek the cross before you see demise
What does this life epitomize?
How is everything so synchronized?
What's really free?
Some look to financial
But what you have when the money go?
Why trust in material?
Cause have your hands ever held a thought?
Think about your eternal soul
What's the purpose of the life you live?
To give your entire life to Him

Teach us how to pray
Teach us how to pray

Who done changed up the calendar?
Know it's never been the saints
Who you call when it's malady?
Seeking for the Father face
Gotta ask in His name
We traverse by the grace
We rejoice in the hopes
Patient in the tribulat'
Never worry bout a thing
Keep the prayer, supplicate
In everything, give thanks
To the Christ, we pray
Angel numbers can't call
Omnipresence in the Living God
When you pray, where it goes?
To Who can save your soul
Who needs a mil' when there's a lifeline?
What's at the end of your lifetime?
Some say that it's just works
How much works to make that work?
Always cut out the middleman
Form the bond with the great I AM
Most the folks who don't like God
Got the concepts all wrong
Talk to Christ and He frees of sin
Eternal life, getting right with Him
Talk to Him if you ain't convinced
Nothing bout the Christ counterfeit
Swim in Living Water, Nautilus
Gotta pray without ceasing
Cause in Jesus where the peace is
In Jesus where the peace is

Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus
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Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus

Star in the east, it ain't come with no co-star
Think of your matters, yo, what you put hope on?
A better phrasing of that would be hope in
Where you do you put all your time and your focus?
I put my stock in the money and went broke
I put my stock in the drugs, had my mind gone
I put my stock in the shorties, where they now?
I put my stock in the parties, they shut down
I put my stock in the raps but they not mine
I put my stock in myself, what if I die?
I put my stock in the stocks, soon they gon' slide
Don't put your stock in the world or it's confines
What you rely on when you on your death bed
Who do you call when you can't see the plane land
What do you think about calling in advance?
What do you think about keeping in contact?
Struggle gon' come in, no matter the season
Life about serving like Venus, Serena
Right now, it's cold, right now it's Christmas
Gotta get you and the Christ in allegiance
Life it had changed, since Spirit indwelled
Live for your brother, i ain't talking Lehman
Armor been on, like writ in Ephesians
Look at what Paul done said in Philemon
All of us need the Lord to redeem us
Personally, I know my sins is egregious
Yeah, look to the power of prayer
The Lord, man, He always there
I was depressed, I was fighting my demons
We all gon' find Him for different reasons
Giving salvation, He offering freely
You just gotta believe Him

Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus
Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus
Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus
Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus
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Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus
Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus
Speaking to Jesus, Talking to Jesus

He will provide

I wonder if next year's gonna go as fast as last
The memories I've amassed, they faded like Walmart jackets
But life fantastic, even amidst the struggle
Easy street is purely fictional
These are the hardest times, the clock on calculus
We strain to see the spins, as it goes round a bit
Is heaven inhibited?
Are the store rooms somewhat limited?
What does God not have but the hearts of man?
This is why the world is as evil as it is
God is good, the Websters definition of
I ask this Christmas to show more love
Ever since my father died, I'd spent more time with bitterness
In solitary like I'm serving three life sentences
I need healing, I need Jesus
I need more time alone, or less
I don't know
Amidst Christmas celebrations and egg nog
I say festivities and then wander off
Try to fake a smile, I can't fake the smile
Lord, take me now, where I shall wear a crown
December 25, the color's navy now
I think of giving up when I'm getting down
If it's one thing, it ain't another venture
Lord give me strength, I'm tryna stay together
The holiday stories and the photos
The ugly sweaters and hot cocoa
Matching jammy jams for the whole fam
I might do that when I have kids
But when my kids ask where's they granddad
I don't know how i'll relay that
Christ please speak through me, like You did to Paul
That might be the hardest thing to say of all
Now that my father gone
I don't know
But He gon' provide it though
That I do know