Resolute

Too many years passed in my life to make me realize
I'm awesome in many ways I could offer to my own eyes
Nobody ever checked on me whenever I was down bad
They must've thought that I would just be better off without them
I don't go outside often, but when I do
It's really awesome, I should go outside more often
Biking in my neighborhood, back then during childhood
Used to burning firewood, but now I'm smoking firewood
I wished a better childhood, maybe with both my parents
I know I have it better than some kids, I got privilege
But the suburbs hella boring anyways, I need a challenge
Maybe when we move to San Diego, I'll feel valid
My ego's slowly dying, but so is my self-esteem
Insecure bout how people will see me as a human being
I need more self-confidence, I rap like it was poetry
Like Edgar Allen Poe, that's how I got the name

Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you die for your niggas
Would you-

It got warmer, went out before sunset
Blasting Bob Marley on the rear car stereo
Like Don Karaoke, I suppressed all my feelings
Pretty ironic how I became the villain
I then became repetitive, even though I refused
Who would've known that Terry really was the one abused
Blinded by my arrogance in fear of being used
Sitting on my ass, I don't know just what to do
Weaponize a superpower like a sweatshop
Reminisce back then waiting on the bus stop
Wish I didn't leave my friends and they didn't leave me
Wish I finished school back when I was 15
Think I found the courage, I do other shit instead
Can I move on, or do I just stay in bed
Overthink regrets, used to wish that I was dead
Never really thought back on the things that I said, goddamn

I must stay strong, but I can't move on
Try to ease myself to closure
I must stay strong, but I can't move on
Try to ease myself to closure
Bring it, nigga
I must stay strong, but I can't move on
Try to ease myself to closure
I can't move on, I can't move on
Tryin' to ease myself to closure